at least it makes me happy.-

2005-06-25T22:19:00.000-07:00

okae. im totalli red. as in my face. liked i went for a suntan.
i drank vodka u c. its jus nice. dad promised to buy summore
tmr. cus he wil b goin cold storage. it jus taste like ice cream
soda. nice nice nice. n im feelin sleepy alreadi. but i have to
finish my work. cus i haven finish yet. smart me to leave it
till now. but i finished most of it. left chinese book review.
chem section b gonna do now so as my corrections. school
is reopening soon. carn wait. jus wanna go back. but once
i go back to school. my life is gonna change again. i carn sleep
late animore. n i have to wake up early. sigh. i dun wan.

2005-06-09T16:31:00.000-07:00

to gwen:
i specialli came to blog for u. read ur entries. im so sorrie to make u feel dis wae.
never knew i hurt u so much. do u realise y sumtimes i wud message u for no reason?
cus i still wanna save our frenship? but aft replyin u one or two messages dere wun be
ani reply animore. i tot maeb u din receive it or smth hopin u wil message me de nex day.
i seriousli miss those times where we wud crap on de fone n laugh at those stupid tings.
now i cud onli c u n me was on de day on 11th April when we went to town, have sushi tei,
took neoprints n everyting. that day was jus. mmm. nice? maeb u tink dat i gettin u back was
for a motive. but i seriousli wanna save our frenship. when i heard u were goin awae on de 10th
n carn spend my birthday wif me i was kinda feelin sad? n when it cums ur birthday i hope to
celebrate it wif u like last year? u told me 'sistars foreva' wil stil stay. can i ask u again is it true?
maeb we can find a wae out to get closer? i understand we r frm a different klas but maeb we stil
have tings to tok abt? not like when we c each other is jus hi n bye. i jus wan de old us back.
do u noe recess its de onli time when i find it de most precious n memorable for each day? cus i
wud b able to c u n de rest. n most probably i wil b able to tok to u like we last were. i noe we aren
close compared to bfor. but i realli wish we can find a wae out to get tings back close again?
im realli sorrie. i din mean to hurt u like dat n make u feel dis wae. hope u can jus give dis a chance
to get back to wad it used to b. i realli wanna save dis. maeb fone calls frm u r hard to cum. but a message
frm u everytime is beta dan nth. bfor i finish dis. i wud jus like to tell u 'sistars foreva' wil foreva b in my
heart. (: n bon voyage.

2005-05-29T21:19:00.000-07:00

haven been bloggin. hit has left for hawaii.
n kellie wil b leavin tmr. jillian wil b leavin on friday.
n gwen de nex. no idea when is nic n fe leavin.
sigh. i wil b here all by myself. guess my birthday
this year. mmm. not gonna tok abt it. its quite saddenin
to noe dat gwen is leavin on de 10th. but i carn do aniting
either rite? mmm. im feelin rather down now. but im not
gonna cry on the outside animore. wonder wad is everyone
doin. wonder wad is gwen doin. i tink kel is asleep. she din reply
for so long. wonder if she is okae. think im gonna start watchin
lovers in paris. since im bored. n no one is dere. dat dumbo aft
hangin up have not messaged me. dunno wads goin on. maeb bz
wif sumting. so i shall not disturbed.

Seems like just yesterday. You were a part of me.
I used to stand so tall. I used to be so strong.
Your arms around me tight. Everything, it felt so right.
Unbreakable, like nothin could go wrong.
Now I cant breathe. No, I cant sleep. Im barely hanging on.
Here I am, once again. Im torn into pieces. Cant deny it.
cant pretend. Just thought you were the one.
Broken up, deep inside. But you won't get to see the tears I cry.
Behind these hazel eyes. I told you everything. Opened up and let you in.
You made me feel alright. For once in my life. Now all that's left of me.
Is what I pretend to be. So together, but so broken up inside.
Cause I cant breathe. No, I cant sleep. Im barely hangin on.
Here I am, once again. Im torn into pieces. Cant deny it, cant pretend.
Just thought you were the one. Broken up, deep inside.
But you won't get to see the tears I cry. Behind these hazel eyes.
Swallow me then spit me out. For hating you, I blame myself.
Seeing you it kills me now. No, I don't cry on the outside anymore...
Here I am, once again. Im torn into pieces. Cant deny it.
cant pretend. Just thought you were the one.
Broken up, deep inside. But you wont get to see the tears I cry.
Behind these hazel eyes. Here I am, once again.
I'm torn into pieces. Cant deny it. cant pretend.
Just thought you were the one. Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry.
Behind these hazel eyes.

2005-05-08T20:46:00.000-07:00

haven been bloggin. guess tings r okae.
but sumone impt is gone. she is not gonna
b dere for me animore. she dun look up for me
animore. we jus seem to b hi bye frens. maeb
its my fault for lettin it drift? but it jus hurts.
guess u never noe. i tried to save it but it was too late.
i let u consider to b back wif us. as i told u. i can onli c
u in de mornin for at most 15 to 20 mins. n durin recess.
dats like 1hr in a day? now i dun even get to tok to u?
its like we dun even have ani topics to tok abt. how cud u
jus dump me? u never explained tings to me. guess u r jus
totalli tired abt explainin alreadi. study hard kae. guess
de 'sistars foreva' tingie wud jus end soon or maeb it alreadi
have ended? but gwen. as i said. no matter wad happens.
u wil alwaes b my sistar. sumone hu played an impt role in my
life. i dunno how im gonna accept de fact dat dis day actualli came.
but guess i have to swallow all those tears. at times. i feel like givin
u a call or even sms u. but i noe its not gonna work out. wad im saein
now mae give u goosebumps but i hope u can consider again? our
frenship n everyting. pls. dis i beg u.

n kel. i hope u wun jus walk awae jus like dat alreadi kae.
i wun b able to take it if u r de nex one im gonna lose. since
i tink i have lost gwen alreadi.

2005-04-12T17:08:00.000-07:00

today is so screwed again. i got no idea wads goin on
the whole entire day. im totalli lost now? n im so gonna
blow up veri veri soon. wad is goin on? like im not part
of dis world. where de hell r u? u r seriousli makin me go mad.
u dun wanna tell me wads goin on. u jus
dumped me here all alone n u walked off again? fine.
b it. walk awae. u jus broke ur promise over n over again.
hidin tings awae frm me. witout saein bye. leavin me
bhind. so dats u rite? forget it. my sis doesn even wan
to tok to me either. except gwen. n she now is havin trainin.
hu else can i find? guess im beta off alone. since when tings
happen dis wae? mentally physically. now i get it. guess now
i shud b rite abt keepin my mouth shut abt it? im so
so rite dat dis is gonna happen AGAIN. n i mean wad i sae.
u r jus makin me worried n sick. but u never knew it.
u tink im fakin? i dunno how m i suppose to tell u. repeatin
everyting i sae over n over again. u jus wun listen thou u sae u do.
do i have to suffer all dis pain cus of u. jus shut up. if since u r leavin.
wad can i do? as i said i jus move on. dis is so screwed. totalli. now
my trust in u is like shit. b dis wae. im fine wif it. i shall sae no more.

2005-04-11T18:27:00.000-07:00

today its sports day!! wasn a realli nice day. im stil angrie.
so watch wad u sae. i ran for tennis but umm. we din managed
to immerge top 3. but its okae. we tried our best. (: maeb
hockey 2 beat us by a few secs.

FOR YOU PP:
aft dat everyting jus went crashing down when gwen
told me WE ARE GOIN BUGIS. hello? hu said dat.
n it was confirmed dat we go to town!!
i have no idea wads goin on. no call no sms to tell me dere
was a change. n i dunno hu suggested it. so does it mean
im not one of u guys? gwen dun even noe a ting too.
n u pp jus make ur own decisions without tellin us. n wad.
jus left de place witout tellin us too. i called kel n her fone
was off. i din blame hit or nic for not pickin up de first time.
okae. at least nic n hit did explain to me a lil wads goin on.
but wad de hell is dis? firstly im mad cus i wasn even informed
a single bit dat we were goin bugis. okae. goin bugis is fine.
but i mae not go once i tell mommie dere was a change.
secondly u guys jus left witout us n not even lettin us noe.
thirdly i called u guys n u said u pp have tuition n r headin
home. 2 changes in jus a few mins? n again. not told at all.
gwen n i dun even noe where de hell u guys went. did u
guys even tot of us in de first place? how we felt abt wad
u guys did? u guys never made decisions witout askin gwen
n i. n hu de hell break dis rule?

KEL : i dunno wad u r up to.
u dun wanna tok to me. ask u wads rong u sae nth.
u dun wanna ans my calls. even if i left a call on ur fone
u dun even call back. n u dun even reply my msg.
wad de hell r u up to. i seriousli dunno.
u r jus hidin tings frm me. makin me feel bad abt everyting.
wad did i do to make u avoid me. i din even do aniting at all.
u r avoidin gwen too for no reasons. u call urself our sistars?
i noe u r stress. we do too. not onli u. hit n nic n de rest do too.
stress doesn mean u have to avoid us rite? its like a knife
thru our hearts? u r not onli makin me feel bad. u r makin gwen too!!
snap out of it kel. stop it! wake up frm dis terrible nitemare.
u r jus torturin urself. its fine if u dun wan me to bother u.
i wun. since u dun wan me to. guess wad i did. how much
i said n b dere for u wun help. de tot of it jus makes me cry.
guess u never knew how painful it is. i msg u. i call u.
is jus to make myself noe dat u r okae. but. u jus make my
world cum crashin down. is dat rite? now all i have to sae is.
im sorrie for everyting dat i have done in sum wae to
make u angrie. i have no idea wad it is. but if u wanna me
to screw off. i wil. jus one word n i wil go.

2005-03-27T22:20:00.000-08:00

trainin today is like terribly horrendous!! so shit.
i was caught in de rain. when i cud even put down
my bag n dere coach shawn goes. : hurry up jorain.
went in to run. haven even warm up finish.
n den had to do drills. its tirin lahs. god.
first drill: run frm one end of de court to de other.
if de ball bounces twice -1. u carn pass ur
partner to hit de ball.
second drill: one in front of de other. ball
lands aniwhere in de court. its mainly
in front of de net, near ur partner, or near
de base line.
third drill: its de most fun. have to run
to de nex court to hit it. maeb sprint.
played 54321. den bfor trainin ends.
had to run ard de perimeter of de 2 courts.
like for 10 mins. den have to overtake sumone
dat coach shawn orders plus mus sprint 1 more round.
tirin!! i was totalli like drenched?!!? like i took
a shower without dryin myself. ate, bathed den
went to study. haven finished yet kae. but i dun plan
to do animore cus wil b skippin maths tmr.
today was okae actualli until i saw those
sentences. its like in my head.
can memorise it : in ur love, my salvation lies(x3),
were you missin me when you were lookin blah blah.
sign off as drops of jupiter. den got smth me onli. ya ya.
wadeva. jus screw off kae. irritatin idiotic pest.
stop buggin pp lahs. get a life!! shithead.
today is jus a happie day until u spoilt it
with ur words. words of ur own which
makes pp hate you. i support my
double crook kae.

gwen: darling!! u make me so disappointed
in you!! u din tok to me lahs!! i noe u dun wan
me rite? okae lahs. den maeb. u shall jus sae it. (X
hee. (psss. im kiddin kae. )

kel: tmr is ur bdae!! wish ya an early
happie bdae kae!! (: love ya.

2005-03-24T23:52:00.000-08:00

tmr is a hol. great.
i can sleep ltr a lil.
went to buy ice cream.
bfor goin east coast.
for de bbq.
guess tmr i wil go back.
n buy again.
de bbq is totalli fun.
took such a long time.
to get dere.
ate marshmallows. roasted.
played de hand slappin game.
its fun but sum of my veins
broke a lil.
even de veins at my plams.
kinda turned blue black now.
n its numb.
guess tonite wun b tokin.
had a fun n nice day todae.
n i dun look depressed.
neither m i troubled.
guess jus stressed up.
but depressed. not realli.

gwen: heys!! u stupid gur!!
u din msg me or call me. (X
mean!! haha. haven been
goin out wif u kae. wad kind
of pts? if u r not gonna tok to
me den ehh. i shall not tok
to you. (X haha.

kel: sorrie abt de other day kae.
kinda all screwed up. aniwae hope
ur parents like de cake.
told ya it was nice. n hurry up
get back ur fone!!

did you know that everyone's a star?
big time, it dont matter who you are.
get your shine on. today and forever i will be loving you.
see i am so confused. dont go breaking my heart.
i couldnt if i tried. nobody knows it.
right from the start. i gave you my heart.
i wont go breaking your heart.
you put the sparks to flame.
i have got your heart in my sights.

2005-03-06T21:03:00.000-08:00

i feel like breaking down.
i feel out of place.
like sumhow i dun belong.
n no one understands me.
i feel like runnin awae.
i locked myself in my room.
with the radio turned up so loud.
n no one hears me screaming.
well you dunno wad its like.
when nth feels alrite.
you dunno wads its like to be like me.
to be hurt. to feel lost.
to be locked up in the dark.
to be kicked when u r down.
to feel like im bein pushed ard.
to be on the edge of breaking down.
when there is no one to save you.
you dunno wad its like to be like me. (:
im jus changin it over. so guess it doesn
mean aniting?

2005-03-06T16:20:00.000-08:00

jus finished doin sum hey math ting.
guess it realli helped.
i din tell mommie abt my results.
told her i din get back.
n i wil do damn bad for it.
so guess i hinted her. (:
how m i supposed to tell her.
its like. im gonna get killed!!
went to town aft sch.
actualli wanted to head straight home.
den met kel n pris at foyer.
so kel asked whether i wanted to
have lunch wif her at town.
so ya. i was allowed to.
mommie allowed.den came dat msg.
which kinda turned everyting in me.
upside down. but never mind.
guess de disappointment wil jus
go awae eventualli. (X
went to sakae. had so much.
cudden finish. so damn full.
n we took a pic of our leftover
sakae food. n also our sakae frog. (:
den went to take neo.
it was so funnie!!
saw val, bebe n de rest.
den it was time to head home.
saw beatrice n weixuan
while crossin de road.
town seems quite quiet todae.
not as crowded.
den kel went her wae i went mine.
hey pts!! u miss everyting okae!!
aniwae. kel n i wanted to buy
smth frm action city.
but den left one of it.
wanted to get one for u too.
so u wun b left out. (:
was tinkin abt everyting.
on de wae home.
guess it was worth it.
everyting i have done over
the years. waitin n everyting.
thou u realli do disappoint me
n made me cry.
guess its worth. bound to
get hurt. but it seems like
its not gonna heal.
everyting in me is like totalli
upside down now n all
tangled up. dere is never a day
when i can totalli b happie.
its like when im happie for sumtime.
it wil jus end so soon.
there you go. you're always so right
its all a big show. its all about you.
you think you know. what everyone needs.
you always take time to criticize me.
it seems like everyday i make mistakes.
i just cant get it right.
its like im the one you love to hate.
but not today. so shut up dont wanna hear it.
get out of my way. step up youll never stop me.
nothing you say today is gonna bring me down.
there you go you never ask why.
its all a big lie whatever you do.
youre always there to point out my mistakes.
and shove them in my face. will never bring me down.
don't tell me who i should be and dont try to tell me
whats right for me. dont tell me what i should do.
ill watch you fade away. guess u might be thinking
im showing you attitude. but im sorry im not.
cause its all because of you. love dis song. (:

2005-03-05T09:46:00.000-08:00

i got back my emaths paper n chem paper.
its realli disappointin.
emaths so much careless mistakes.
chem paper lost 2 marks cus i din read de qn properly.
freakin hell.
but its over aniwae. no point regrettin.
jus have to work realli hard for sa.
to pull de grades up.
gwen:
i jus read ur blog.
guess its realli hurtin to read it.
like now which is when i jus woke up.
i dunno how to tell u either.
guess i tell kel tings more dan i tell u.
i noe u have tried. but sumtings.
its realli funnie.
like when kel isn cumin my hse u wun cum.
its like wads rong?
does it mean kel cums den u wil?
carn u b like wad we used to b?
like jus de 2 of us? like how we used to
go out together alone?
sumtimes i realli dun understand u.
can u like change ur tinkin a lil?
dun alwaes follow den u wil do it.
b urself gwen.
i noe u r not like dat. u have ur own reasons.
if u realli wan smth go for it.
i noe u dun wan us to drift but i have no
idea y im not tokin to u as much.
dere is nth to do wif kel. guess
she isn de prob. if u realli dun wanna pass me
wad u wrote den guess u have to change
ur tinkin kae? all i c is dat im stil tokin to u
but jus dat i tok to kel more. i do have a part
to play. jus rmbr we r sistars. we go thru ups
n downs together no matter wad. guess we
shud realli tok more like we used to. if not
guess its gonna go driftin further? u realli
nid to tell me wads rong kae. dun hide it
inside.

u*: its ur birthday today!! its ur special
day so u have to enjoy it no matter wad.
thou i carn celebrate wif u but. mmm.
it wil b okae witout me kae? cheers. (:

2005-03-01T16:27:00.000-08:00

i guess i screwed up all my papers.
sigh. aniwae.
its done so i carn turn back time rite.
i guess e maths n chem paper
wun b as bad like i tink.
how i wish u were jus like dis song.
I don't want another pretty face.
I don't want just anyone to hold.
I don't want my love to go to waste.
I want you and your beautiful soul.
You're the one I wanna chase.
You're the one I wanna hold.
I wont let another minute go to waste.
I want you and your beautiful soul.
I know that you are something special.
To you I'd be always faithful.
I want to be what you always needed.
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me.
You might need time to think it over.
But im just fine moving forward.
I'll ease your mind.
If you give me the chance.
I will never make you cry.
c`mon lets try.
Am I crazy for wanting you.
Baby do you think you could want me too.
I don't wanna waste your time.
Do you see things the way I do.
I just wanna know if you feel it too.
There is nothing left to hide.
dis song rawks. sweet n nice. (:

2005-02-25T22:36:00.000-08:00

-y do i have to alwaes worrie for u.
-y do i alwaes have to care.
-y do i alwaes do everyting jus for u.
-when u dun even care.
-now i noe i shudden do aniting.
-n i noe u wil never b dere.
-guess tings wil turn worse.
-but all i noe.
-upon hearin ur voice n cin u.
-tings wil b a lil beta.
-guess i dun nid u to love me.
-if u dun wan.
-guess dere is sumone out dere beta for u.
-nice enuf for u to appreciate.
-guess i have to accept the fact that u aren mine.
-its jus onli a matter of time.
-all i nid is you to be by my side.
-tink i wil b able to make it on my own.
-but i dun tink its possible.
-do u even noe wad m i tinkin inside of u.
-do u even noe how much u mean to me.
-do u even noe how much dis means.
-u sae u do but u aren me.
-u wun noe how much pain i have gone thru.
-as i said. im not gonna cry.
-im not gonna cry for u.
-im gonna live on.
-gonna carry on with a smile.
-how i wish i was out of dis world.
-never to let u c me.
-so i wil b able to c n prove to me.
-how much i mean to u.
-i dun wanna jus hear words.
-i wanna c it.
-guess as long i cover up all the miseries.
-u wun b able to c.
-but jus to let u noe.
-im stayin for good.
-u wun c a suitcase of regrets frm me.
-the happie memories u r able to give me in de past.
-wil b able to last me for a period of time.
-go on n do your tings.
-guess im jus on de wrong side of the parallel universe.
-wonder m i alive or jus dead.
-cus im sumwhere in the dark.
-livin in a crash world. (:
-thanks for the pressie.
-realli appreciate it.
-cus its frm u.
-n i nid sumone to love me back in return.
-as much as i love u. (:

2005-02-19T23:28:00.000-08:00

did my work today for almost de whole day. jean came thou she sae she cudden at first. den ard 0330 she called me n sae whether she cud cum over so of cus i wil sae yes rite. (: at least i have company. so she came in like 10 mins frm her hse to my place? den we did our own work. she was studyin for her tests. i did my chi project. den daddie came to pick us up to warren. we did our work dere too. guess i stil have 6 more qns to go to finish my maths. nid to crack my head again tmr. wheneva im wif jean its alwaes de best. she makes me feel great n everyting. make me forget all those stupid tings.

its another day we went our separate waes witout tinkin abt each other. now we r tokin even lesser. dun u tink so? (: but its okae. i have jean n de rest. but guess u mean de most but u dun make me feel de same like u alwaes do. does de fault lies wif me or u? maeb its me. u sae u care n u wil alwaes b dere for me but de fact is u r alwaes too bz wif ur tings now to b dere. i dun blame u. (: im gonna smile aniwae. im not gonna cry for u or m i gonna tink abt those tings animore. gonna carry on. no one noes wad im tinkin inside. but guess i noe de wae out. i realised smth. i msged u at ard 1224 n u replied ard 1244 n i replied but guess u din receive again so jus one msg n until now its like almost 12 hrs alreadi n dere is no msg frm u? i dun blame u. (: im not gonna msg u first animore. makes me like a fool. n waitin for ur msg everytime n it doesn cums makes me feel even more like a fool. so guess now it proves to me dat i shudden wait. have been askin myself is it realli my msg din get thru or wad. guess i shudden doubt u. guess now i can realli tell u we r realli driftin awae. now it isn time pullin us apart. its us? i mean. i tried to like tok to u like how i used to? but i dun get ani respond u get it? im much closer to other pp dan u do u noe dat? dere is nth i can do since i did wad i shud do. im not gonna leave aniwae unless wad all u had said was all a lie? n makin me feel like i was de onli one when im not? i nid to change my wae of tinkin now. all i noe u jus carry on wif wad u wanna do kae? im not gonna bother u. gonna jus shut up abt it. until one day u go ur wae n im forced to go mine.

heys jean. thanks for everyting today kae. did help alot. u make me smile!! n i laughed alot too. no wonder u r my mrp. never forget amelia hu is my mrp too. i miss amelia!! dunno where wil b de nex time i c her mans. aniwae. nex sat is stil on kae. u shall make me smile again aft mmm. one more week of misery.
n i promise u de nex time when we go to hell i shall brin u to play pool kae. when i finish my work n also provided we have time n table to play. i promise.(:

oh!! n i shall not forget abt gwen n kel n hit. u guys make me smile too.

heys hit. u make me smile yesterday nite n i did have a wierd dream!! all thanks to ur msgs. u r such a sweet gur hu alwaes brighten up pp's life. hope u caught up wif ur sleep. sleep more kae. i noe u r tired. n congrats to isabel hse hu is de champion for de fun splash. n 3 cheers for my hse hu is 2nd. (: n we shall go have twister fries together one day kae. mus have. we missed it yesterday so we nid to replace it another day when we can. (:

ohh. kel jus msged me. hee. great. i have sumone to tok to now. yay. wun b alone. thanks kel for ur one msg!! haha. but its beta dan nth. (:

gwen: hows shoppin yesterdae? i went to ur blog. read dat dedication for me!! dun feel insecure. dun kae. (:

wenqi: u beta study hard. n its stupid to get stressed over cus u carn study. jus motivate urself. i noe its hard to change but u have to. its an impt year for u. n jus a reminder. u have another 1 more week to change. hurry!! (:1
im gonna stop bloggin now. its 1128 alreadi n no msg frm u. guess u r realli bz. gonna start doin my work. hope i wil b able to finish it. bye pp. cheers!! (:
latest update: i got a msg frm u. (:

I walk a lonely road the only one that I have ever known. don't know where it goes but it's home to me and I walk alone. i walk this empty street on the Boulevard of Broken Dreams. where the city sleeps and I'm the only one and I walk alone. my shadow's the only one that walks beside me. my shallow heart's the only thing that's beating. sometimes I wish someone out there will find me till then I walk alone. I'm walking down the line that divides me somewhere in my mind. on the border line of the edge and where I walk alone. read between the lines check my vital signs to know I'm still alive and I walk alone.
out at 1137. (:
msg frm u. (:

2005-02-18T21:00:00.000-08:00

mrs fung wun b goin to sch on friday. she wil b goin for holiday. miss chan is gonna b our relieve maths teacher. maths was fun today. had fun splash today. went to harbourfront with gwen, kel, jillian n pris. actualli decided to go to mac but kel dun wanna eat burger. den went to pasta mania. decided to leave cus sure wun b able to reach dere in time. den walked pass the pet shop. jillian, pris n kel went in. gwen n i went to cheers. bought sweets n a drink. den dey came sae wanted to go breadtalk n we went. kel n pris wanted to buy smth frm cheers. we missed de first train. okae. so we were late but we were dat few lahs. our names r taken down. so guess we have to get punished or smth. was suppose to go to gwen's hse den daddie wud pick me up frm dere. but dere was a last min change. took de train down all de wae down to bugis all alone when actualli i cud have went off earlier wif hit n de rest.

guess we didnt see it wasnt meant to be. but we tried to love each other there was no reason to. its just what we went through. now time has torn us apart. though i told you i love you and you told me the same. a little distance between us how i have noticed a lot has changed. now i aint missing your love. its just another day we go our separate ways without thinking about each other. now everything seems new when i see it without you. i have been told you feel the same as i do. is it a crime that i have finally realised you were missing all along. still i dont have you and im torn in two. now its time to say goodbye.

i toss in turn in bed carn get you out of my head. even though you are so far away i need you here with me. when i close my eyes i think of you. well how i wish you were here with me but theres nothing i can do. counting everyday that goes by and the tears that i cry you dun wanna love me no more. wish that you could hold me. im hurting inside. i need to nid to find out where you are so i can make you see that you belong to me. but i wanna noe what made you feel this way i will be right here for you. but how can i get this close to you when you dont feel the same as i do.

2005-02-17T22:09:00.000-08:00

tournaments are over. n exams r cumin. nid to work on my a maths. i dun wanna flung it. it wil b my worst nitemare eva.

love started out like coke and lemon. much sweeter compared to sour. now we are drfiting apart. its like ice lemon tea. much sour compared to sweet. nex wil wil end up like water and lemon. blunt n much more sour. n den wil b hot coffee for u n hot chocolate for me. hot n a little sweet. jus to wash awae those memories.-

2005-02-13T21:29:00.000-08:00

its sunday today n guess everyone noes. but its not realli a nice day. it kinda started out bad den okae den worse. i tink i wun b able to hang on animore. guess maeb i wil jus let everyting i have go. i dunno wads de cause. maeb im pressurisin myself too much or wad. carn seem to live how pp live. i miss those carefree life okae. but it wil never cum back animore. was at my dad fren's hse earlier. was leanin against de ledge. its like 12 stories high. tings started goin into my head. de ground below seems close to me. mommie did pull me back cus she said i was leanin too too close. but i dun tink so. maeb guess my days r up. but im realli thankful for wad i have. u*, gwen, kel n de rest. guess i shudden carry on animore. shall jus stop here.

you weren dere when i nid u. its not de first. its not de second. its umpteen times. im realli scared dat u wil jus leave. but guess its not time for u yet. guess im jus a pain.-

2005-02-10T22:33:00.000-08:00

i feel like breakin down. but i noe i carn. i nid to b strong. live strong u c. (: i wil tink a wae to get out of it lahs. n finalli managed to contact gwen. so its smth good. but den im stil not feelin good. dunno how many times have i broken down since sch started. but i noe i carn continue like dat.

sometimes i get emotional. sometimes i do some stupid things. sometimes i say what i should just keep inside. sometimes im sad about everything. sometimes im mad and break some things. sorry times 10 but you just got in the way. dont give up now running away. i wont hurt you sometimes im just a pain. and thats the way it is thats just the way im. sometimes i feel like crying laying down and dying. thats when i need you laughing is always easy, but sometimes im just scared you willl leave me. that's when i feel emotional. you say im just impossible totally unpredictable. im just a girl get use to it no big deal. you cant change me why would you try? im no angel but i can make you smile and thats the way it is. thats just the way i am.

theres a girl in New York City. skylines no longer pretty bound to destination anywhere. she grew up in California. big dreams, they tend to own you there. now shes building cardboard castles in the air. she was a rainbow once so colorful but that was once. now thats impossible to see, to see with a voice subliminal. its the only sign shes beautiful. heres all thats left of her dignity.
he was a pretty boy. rolling cash his only joy. now thats impossible to see, to see. used to be one of them. now the men in suits are avoiding him. he lost his credit cards but hey hes free. theres a man in New York City. the skyline's no longer pretty. bound for destination anywhere had the whole world at his window. it seems so long ago from then now he's building cardboard castles in the air. does anybody know? does anybody care? over here, over there. building cardboard castles in the air.

2005-02-10T01:21:00.000-08:00

tuesday
went to sch in de mornin. haha. how amazin. daddie mommie insist to pick me up aft sch. so ya. din managed to go n get it. but never mind. wil find a wae. hee. gwen din go to sch okae. dunno wad happened. she told me she was goin. but end up she din appear in sch. tot she was late but de fact is she din even go. sms her no reply. guess either my sms din get thru or i carn receive it. blardi hell. gonna change dis stupid cranky phone okae. alwaes like dat.

gwen

heys my pts. where r u?? i carn seem to get ya. umm. din even sms me or wad. worse u din tell me u weren cumin to sch!! but its okae. i forgive u. (: eh. if u c dis jus tag on my blog kae. kinda worried abt ya. aniwae. happie cny kae. all de best. dun put too much pressure on urself. i understand how u r feelin kae. i noe. jus relax n everyting. if dis year we have a tough year ahead jus take it ez. train hard kae. yeps. loveya!! (:

u*
you're a shining star no matter who you are. shining bright to see what you could truly be. shining star come in to view shine its watchful light on you. twinkle, twinkle, little star. so i will know where you are. gleaming above in the skies. where the land i dreamed of lies. and when our journey is through to say goodnight. we will thank the little star that shines so bright. you are the sunshine of my life thats why i will always be around. you are the apple of my eye forever you will stay in my heart. i feel like this is the beginning though i have loved you for a million years. and if i thought our love was ending i wud find myself drowning in my own tears. you must have known that i was lonely. because you came to my rescue. and i know that this must be heaven. how could so much love be inside of you? (:

2005-02-03T19:17:00.000-08:00

lost to mgs 5-0!! pathetic okae. i lost my doubles. 9-7. it was actualli okae. n amazinli coach din pick on me. he gave me the usual ^5. guess cus i din lose badly. i carn have an extra banana. told nic if i win i get a banana. but i din. so i dun get to eat. it was kinda funnie today. was wif cherie n weejia near katong convent's grp. den umm. laura n joanna walked over wif a grp of dem. den laura asked my name n i told her. den everyone's reaction was like oh!! u r jorain!! okae. i noe im. : ) n sum gur punched my arm when she knew my name. dat gur hu looks like sumone frm my sch. guess katong convent pp r realli friendly n nice okae. i called madelena a big bully cus she won joanna n celina. but she realli played well. she was tellin me dat she cudden realli serve for the past 4 matches while walkin to her to court 9. yihui is realli cute okae. n funnie. she was my opponent when my sch played against sac. haha. nic was totalli high aft her match.

fangzi n i kinda teased joanna cus she was on de fone when she reached nus. den its like so early so sure cannot b frm my sch. so we were said realli loudly: r u tokin to ur accessories? she said no. so i said: so mus b ur neccessity alreadi. n de rest kinda laughed. actualli accessories as wad we defined as is steads-to-be. n neccessity is stead alreadi. its lame lahs. oh n dis gur's bf frm mgs came. heard frm pp dat her bf saes she plays like hewett. oh rite. haha. like i wil believe. guess he is the ugliset guy eva lahs. her taste is gracious. okae. im mean. im so sorrie.

aft dat when we were released glad n weejia nid to take a cab n so do i. so like ya. suppose to take diff cab frm den but end up walkin so far awae jus to get a cab. n den i had to get off at alexendra n took a bus. i tell u dey r realli daylight robbers okae. wanted me to pay at least 3 bucks. jia was bargainin wif me n glad was tryin to get my wallet out frm my pocket. now wad. de money dey owe me i carn get it back animore. cus i said use de money dey owe me to pay. hell lahs. y din i even sae dat mans. its like total dey owe me 4.70 n its like enuf to pay for de cab fare!! forget it mans. shall not tok abt it animore. :)

im so so hungrie okae!! wonder when wil dinner even b ready. have maths, s.s n chem to test to complete by tonite. how i wish i can have a day off tmr okae. im so so tired. shall tolerate another nite n dats it. my weekends for me to rest.

you're the kind of friend who always bends when i'm broken like remember when you took my heart and put it back together again. you're it. you're the ultimate. it's automatic. i'm sure of it. no lie so don't even try. to tell me that you're not the guy. cuz i've been waiting all my life for someone just like you. you've been right in front of me. everything i need why didn't i see. you're it. you're the ultimate.

2005-02-02T22:47:00.000-08:00

decided to blog again bfor i go to bed. my eyes r closin. im quite tired actualli. my head is gettin dizzy. dunno y too. but i guess its okae. finished my homework. i missed my chem test today. great. nid to sit for it on friday aft sch. irritatin. but no choice. nex week its cny!! yes. at least i can sleep a little ltr n a little more. frm wad i heard. daddie saes we mae go to malaysia on tuesday nite for familie dinner. i dun wan kae. i carn message!! but i guess its onli for a while n im gonna miss u*. carn dey jus cum to my place for dinner instead like last year? but i noe its impossible cus its planned long ago alternate years at my place n everyting. den wil cum back aft dat. den wednesday mornin go in again. den aft dat go grandma's hse. her hse is alwaes full of pp on de first day. den thursday wil go ah yi's place den maeb at nite go to ah kim's hse. n i wil b able to make my own popiah n eat it again. i wil b able to taste ah kim's tomyam soup again. its like once in a year lahs. okae. shall not continue animore if not wil never finish.

i guess tings r kinda settled between us. guess nth is gonna go rong? but i jus hope lahs okae. aft so many days n all those stupid tings happened i finalli actualli realli smiled lahs. my star is shinin brightly n smilin n the sun rays r shinin too. the feelin inside is so so nice okae. thankies kae? u realli found back my smile. loveya lots!! =)

2005-02-02T20:36:00.000-08:00

i lost my match okae. but wasn as bad. i played against a combine sch gur. she is realli frenly kae. todae was okae lahs. onli de part when coach said to me: u carn run long distant so u have to run when de rest runs on de track ltr. if they run 6 u have to run 8. bias freak. wad de hell. her shots r so damn blardi fast, hard, deep n its all angle shots. how u expect me to run. its impossible lahs okae. bias. its like in a blink and de ball is returned lahs. cherie met another gur jus like her. but den he din sae aniting to her okae. onli noe how to go against me. okae i noe u take me as a subsitute when tracce din go for tournament okae. i realli feel like tellin u in ur face dat u suck!!

okae. now its kinda freakin me out. my cousin's fren hu is like a year younger jus said smth to me. i onli treated him as a brother? den like. omg!! okae. im sure gonna avoid him like hell lots. stop it mans. shud have taken my cousin's advise. tot he was kiddin abt it. but wad. today is the day he said to me.

u*: okae. seriousli we are driftin okae. i onli get to c u on sundays. onli sundays n its not enuf. we dun tok on the fone as usual or even sms each other. i noe it isn ur fault. n i noe u dun wan dis to happen. i never tot dis day wil even cum okae. but guess today is the day. m i realli darn in bad luck or wad. okae. i realli dunno wad to sae. but guess i jus have to tolerate wif all the pain n all. twinkle twinkle little star. y do all my dreams seem so far. up above the world so high. carn anione tell me y. can you help me out n tell me wad is love abt? cus i never know it for myself till u came abt. im so so afraid dis day wil cum n i wil b tinkin: i used to believe in love. i used to believe in fairy tales. since my heart is crushed. i dun believe much. i nid help. i dunno which way to turn. i nid to figure out for myself. i have jus started to learn dat dere is no such ting as fairytales. i seriousli dun wan to have dis day. dere r stil many chapters to go. i dun wan to close up de book yet. im wondering is a good storie suppose to end unhappily ever aft? jus as wonderful as it begins and carry on for a few chapters until i carn get pass page one n i jus have to shove it back on the shelf. can u help me? i realli dun wan to end unhappily. dere wil be ups n downs. smiles n frowns. as im sittin here tinkin to myself. dere is noone for me except you. n i mean dat. now it jus seems dat is gonna b so so soon.

2005-01-30T01:09:00.000-08:00

i miss my pencilcase. heys. thankies guys. thanks so much kae. for all those consolin n everyting. went to hell today as usual lahs. did my work dere. almost de whole day. but din finish cus my work is never done. jus finished studyin thou. so decided to blog a little. aniwae. guess im gonna off de com soon. time for it to rest. haha. nitie nites peeps.

It's such a funny thing. Everytime you come around I get this feeling. Kinda tingles, kinda tickles. Makes my heart sing. I'm all wrapped up in a cocoon of this emotion you bring. I feel butterflies floating around inside whenever I'm with you. My heartbeat begins to race. My mind drifts to another place. I feel like I can fly free as the wind. I can't pretend i wish we were more than friends. And I know the reason why.

2005-01-27T19:04:00.000-08:00

totalli bz for de whole week. as usual trainin. we lost to sac 3-2. its our first match thou. kinda a close margin. i shud have taken nic's advice of regrippin. wad de hell. if i did den i wud have played well lahs. idiot!! okae. wil b playin against cedar tmr. great. no idea whether we are gonna win but den ya. hope i dun meet dat rachel idiot again. hate her. she totalli cheat on de court okae. can jus change position n insist dat de point was dat. yuck. today was de last dae i saw my pencilbox. sobs.- i cried okae. i seriousli cried. i din wan to but i cudden hold it back. sum stupid idiot took my pencilbox lahs. she can have all my pens she wans. jus return me back my specs. i nid it lahs. kaos. irritatin b*itch. dunno which idiot took it. its like wad de hell. wad on earth does she wan my pencilbox for. okae. maeb she carn afford it. but den she can jus dump everyting dere n take de pencilbox onli rite. i got so so worried i dun even dare to go home at first. i dun even noe how to tell my parents okae. but den i did. i called dem aft sch. wonder hows my pencilbox doin rite now. i realli wan it back. can u pls give it back to me hu eva took it. it isn urs!! its mine!! ah!! it flew awae aft recess. dat was de veri last time i saw it. it din even sae bye to me okae. sigh. bad day for me i guess. i feel like cryin now. but i noe even if i cry it wun cum back animore. its gonna b wif dat b*itch hu took it. gtg. heard miss tay's voice. tuition gonna start soon. blog ltr.

2005-01-20T18:25:00.000-08:00

the week has been stressful kae. piles of work n trainins. sieow. hurt my back again. usual injury. but its okae now. jus read weejia's blog. hey jia. stop tokin rubbish kae. =P monday wil b de start of de match. gonna play against sac. glad's sch. dunno whether i wil b playin thou. my performance have been veri bad recently okae. dunno wad to do mans. finalli can have a nice bedtime witout havin to wake up suddenly in de middle of de nite for no reason n go back to bed again. guess tings r goin well for me dis week. okae. not realli totalli well but okae lahs. gwen n de rest have been tellin me to relax. haha.

gwen: heys. thankies kae sis. its hell mans dis week. so much work.
i nid to relax!! haha. but den ya. i have to complete my work
rite. wad to do mans. nid to get use to it. yeps. i wil b okae. =) i jus read ur blog!! oh my god!! we aren drifting apart okae!! we are not. i still can feel you here but not as much animore. cus ya. maeb cus we are frm diff klas? den ya. u r closer to kel. haha. kel u nid take care of her kae. she is my sistar so r u. so u nid to help me!! haha. sistars4eva mans. (X
kel: heys gur. read ur letter. umm. gonna reply soon kae? yeps. guess
tings mus have changed over de hols ya? mmm. glad dat u looked
at de brighter sight. n as for de tag on ur board i guess she was realli
mean lahs kae. i mean its not totalli hers. she carn like stop u. its up to de
person to choose. hope tings wil change for de beta for u kae.
i wanna eat my cookie!! aniwae. since gwen n u r cookie partners den wad
abt me?!!? u guys cannot leave me out!! hee. =P
hit: thankies for teachin me kae. haha. seriousli nid ur help for a maths. totalli
confused mans.
jillian: thankies for those smses kae. did help alot. aniwae. its alreadi over.
haha. im not afraid of dem thou. jus affected. yeps. thanks!!
u: im missin u!! haha. totalli missin u. In your dreams i willl walk with you. To the edges of heaven. I will be there for you. In my heart you will see the truth. Close your eyes till you will find me in your dreams. I will walk with you. From the moment that you came into my life. I knew the world was right. Angels must have sent you down to me. To hear you call my name. A single word that turns to a song. Brings me joy so hard to explain. A simple truth, this is where I belong. And thats all because of you.

guess tings aren goin realli well for dem too mans. but den. ya. u guys nid to look at de brighter side too kae? haha. smile alwaes mans!! i wil pull u guys along. haha.

had cme todae. den had to interact wif my other klasmates. got belinda, rubini, inggrid n charlene in my grp. charlene is so so funnie mans. haha. n she toks quite alot thou. haha. guess she realli makes pp smile lahs. rubini is umm. friendly. haha. yeps. as for inggrid. she is realli quiet but den realli helpful. sumtimes i tok to her. n recently i have been tokin to stephanie thai. haha. she is so so funnie. guess i can get along wif her quite well at de moment. i like to scare her thou den she wil give me dat look. haha. tokin to her makes me smile!! haha. i dunno y. maeb cus of her xpressions. stil rmbred de time when jillian scared her. haha!! so funnie kae. guess dats was de startin when i started tokin to her. im tokin to sien teng too. my p3 n 4 klasmate i tink? but not tokin much. ninag kia is 100% quiet okae. dat day when yingjie was tokin to her she is like totalli no reaction. den i said yingjie is tokin to a total wall. haha. n ninag kia laughed. at least she reacted. gtg now. update ltr. love ya. =)

2005-01-15T23:23:00.000-08:00

haven been bloggin. no time actualli. now mondays, wednesdays n fridays r all taken up by trainins. other dan trainins is either tuition or jus study n get my homework done. totalli no time for aniting else. ah! today was actualli okae until ltr part of de day. everyone is totalli mad n sick lahs. n im totalli pissed. in jus one week so many tings happened alreadi.

stop pokin ur nose into other pp's business lahs. jus get a life. u dun nid to noe everyting in de world. jus mind ur own okae. stop goin ard askin pp to get to noe everyting. totalli a bzbody lahs.

tournament starts in 9 days. n dats like so so soon? tink train hard also wun work lahs. okae. maeb wil but jus a little. jia has improve alot mans. hope i get to pair up wif her for doubles if coach puts me in de list to represent. oh. n congrats to sandra, meika n de rest. managed to get into tennis. great. sandra is so so cute!!

guess everyone r havin deir own probs too. not onli me. hope u guys wil get over dem soon kae. but rmbr to smile alwaes. =) thou it mae hurt inside for awhile but de pain wil soon b over kae? tolerate it for a little while more.

2005-01-10T22:16:00.000-08:00

shall blog bfor i go to bed. yawn.- im so so tired. jus finished doin all my homework. feel like killin pp alreadi. stupid compo. he beta stop askin us to write compo. if not i realli wil skin him alive. okae. i carn take it animore. gonna turn in now. nitie nites. sweet dreams. love ya.

Some people don't understand. What I see in you. If only they knew. They think my head's in the sand. They'll never see the best side of you. Is my heart ruling my mind. Maybe I'm not right every time. But I know I'm right about this love of mine. If I had to do it all again. I wouldn't change a single thing. There's no questioning in my heart. When it comes to our love. I wouldn't change a thing.Yeah, I've had my doubts. My ups and downs. On the merry-go-round. They say my heads in the cloud. But I'm keeping one foot on the ground. I know they say love is blind. But he's the best thing that happened to me and I'm not ashamed for the world to see. You never know what they are saying behind your back. They came to me and said things about you and i guess you know. But those words are not gonna bring me down. no matter how hard they try i wont let them come in and make me believe their words to break my trust in you.

2005-01-10T18:47:00.000-08:00

jus came back frm trainin. trainin is so nice today. could whack in, volley, smash n serve flat. haha. so so contentin n satisfyin. have a maths work. stupid. n got bio worksheet to do too. worse got compo to write lahs. second one since sch reopened. ah!! oh. miss chan came to take over de klas today cus mr fong din cum. she is so so cute lahs. haha. so so happie to c her back kae. tournament is cumin in 2 weeks time. so means on de 24th. wonder hu wil we b playin against. guess i wil partner weejia for doubles if i get to play lahs. haha. guess time is passin realli quickly lahs. jus hope it continues dis wae till thursday. okae. wad m i tokin abt. nvr mind. haha. im okae n fine. haha. yeps. no prob. =)

jus heard a news frm my dear. haha. made me wanna puke durin recess kae. carn believe it!! yuck. okae. jus not elaborate on it animore. makes me wanna jump off a buildin. stupid person to go wif dat person. so so stupid. guess eyes blind one ahs. haha. i love u dear!! haha. i love u kel n hit n de rest too!!

its been onli like one day eva since i saw u lahs. but den its like takin years to get to c ya again. so torturin. sigh. but nvr mind lahs. im fine. hee. yeps. noe u r bz too. so ya lohs. haha. aniwae. love ya. =)
here you go again. making me forget everything. you keep me smiling. they say our love is just a phrase. that is just for some days. but im going so far. i wanna be where you are. here you go again. making me forget the longing. i love everything you say. they say our love is just a phrase. who believes that anyway? its starts over again. i love you and i wanna be where you are. to you i belong. no more goodbyes. we knew all along. open your eyes. shh. its not a dream. =P

2005-01-06T16:24:00.000-08:00

haven been bloggin lateli. n i guess i wun b able to blog often. first dae of sch was okae. jus dat i was late lahs kae. last one in my klas to reach. stupid. gwen looks so cute lahs!! wif dat small ponytail. haha. n clips all over her hair. saw fe first in de mornin den kel. saw val n pris ltr. god. so so nice okae. haha.

my e n a maths teacher is mrs michele fung. michele onli 1 l n fung has a u not a. guess she is a realli good teacher? but frm de wae she teaches n everyting n c dat her xpectations of her klas is realli realli high? sigh. she doesn use de textbooks at all. jus teaches like dat.

my e lit teacher is mrs shankar. god. her voice is realli realli high lahs. when she raises her voice its like. god. haha. ear drums can burst mans. but heard frm pp dat she is a good lit teacher. so i shall trust deir words. haha.

my bio teacher is miss sylvia wong. she taught us on wad is in both animal n plant cells.

my chi teacher is miss mak. yes!! haha. i love her mans. enjoy her lesson so much. but ya. dun realli have pp inside i noe? except last year pp. she is realli realli nice lahs. patient n funnie.

mr fong is my english teacher lahs. okae. my first reaction was like he is my english teacher? made us write ani qn on de paper n let de person nex to u ans it. okae. hit gave me a qn which is if you found out dat you r dyin wad would u do? my ans is. i wil bid farewell to everyone n prepare for my wake. yeps. but guess sumone's ans is even funnier lahs. qn was if you found out dat ur fren is dyin wad would u do. haha. ans? i wil tell her to rest in peace. okae. not veri funnie but i find it. hee.

my chem teacher is mrs lim poh ping. de best chem teacher to me. haha. she is kinda sarcastic but in a funnie wae. rina looks a bit like her. stil rmbred she sae we carn look out of de klas unless de person out dere is prettier dan her. n reason is cus her initial is lpp. stands for prettie prettie lim. haha. funnie. oh! n she saes she recognises all of us in her chem klas. n if we c her n dun greet her she wil realli rmbr us for her whole entire lifetime.

had homework on de second day of sch. e maths work. n had to study for small maths test. also have to read finish de whole e lit book my dis weekend. so i dun realli care. haha. yesterday had to read up chap 7 of geog, chap 1 of chem n finish chem worksheet.

durin english todae had to write compo. dun realli noe wad to write so like ya. hee. have 80 qns on e maths to do n 5 qns on a maths. luckie have no maths klas tmr. if not gonna die. haha. dats abt it. sch was fine but a little stressful lahs. 4th day of sch onli. mmm. had recess wif de rest for 4 days. felt like we were sec 2 again. but ya. guess im onli in de same klas mostli wif hit onli chi wif shiyi. its so so bad lahs. dun even get to b in ani klas dat de rest r in. at least de rest have. but im not in deir klas. ah!! so so unfair. aniwae. gtg go rest awhile. feelin feverish n cold again. sheesh. ltr den start on my maths work. n i miss u so so much okae. but glad de dae is cumin. yeps.

2004-12-25T23:00:00.000-08:00

haven been bloggin le. not in a mood lahs. sorrie. guess gwen mus b tinkin wad de hell m i doin mans. sorrie ahs. dat dae aft smsin u i slept le. n umm. merry christmas kae. n to everyone else. so so sorrie for not wishin u guys merry christmas. slept realli early last nite. n umm. guess im not in a merry christmasie mood lahs. so so sorrie. dis whole week is borin lahs. nvr go out jus keep sleepin n dreamin. sigh. christmas is gonna b over so so soon. but hu cares. im not in a mood for christmas. another year of christmas all alone. de feelin is so so bad lahs. at least give me a year to spend my christmas wif rite. hiya. wadeva lahs. thou i believe in santa i wil nvr get my wishes. guess i wasn a good gur aft all. rite santa? thou dis year no one gave me awae for christmas but i carn christmas wif anione!! guess its a bit beta.

dunno when u r cumin back. so so horrible lahs. beta tell me when u r cumin back if not when u cum back den u noe. i shall b realli ba dao lahs. c how u gonna handle me. dun care. u owe me. hu ask u b awae for christmas. another bitter christmas. but its good dat i had 3 nites of nice dreams. at least i got to c ya. but last nite wasn nice. bad ting is i disappointed u!! so so sorrie kae. cries.- i tink i broke out in cold sweat yesterdae? all i noe i was shiverin aft de first nitemare. den i woke up to use de com for awhile n i went back to sleep shiverin. chudden b my air con is too cold for me cus it has alwaes been de same temperature. jus noe yesterdae nite was a total nitemares nite. sigh. totalli a bad nite!! hope tonite wil b beta nite.

i got to tok to u dis mornin thru sms. so wasn dat bad. but i had to spend christmas by myself!! jus keep sleepin n sleepin todae. n dreamin n dreamin. went swimmin too. so so long since i had a proper swim okae.

guess im disappointin pp mans. not realli all but den i carn simply make pp happie lahs. wads rong wif me? im suppose to make pp happie lahs. mmm. wonder wad is gwen doin now. n wonderin wad u r doin now too. christmas nite. everyone is enjoyin demselves except me. hope nicole wil cheer up too. dun bother so much alreadi my dear. tmr wil b a beta dae. jus whack durin tennis klas n everyting wil b jus fine. n b ur hyper crazie self tmr too!! hope u r enjoyin urself. mus smile le. cannot jus shut urself frm everyone. todae is christmas u mus enjoy. guess u wun cum online tonite alreadi lahs. waited for de past 3 nites for u to cum online guess u din noe ba. but nvr mind. its okae de. n im gonna strangle all postmans dat cums to my hse alreadi. i wan my parcel!! dunno which idiot has it. im gonna kill de person. dat person is gonna die a horrible death. grins.- shall blog sum day. aniwae. merry merry christmas peeps.

Christmas just ain't Christmas.
Without the one you love.
New Years just ain't New Years.
Without the one you love.
Underneath the mistletoe.
I saw a face all aglow.
Last year this time.
Now I'm staying home alone.
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It's a marshmallow world in the winter.
When the snow comes to cover the ground.
It's the time for play.
it's a whipped cream day.
I wait for it all year round.
Those are marshmallow clouds being friendly.
In the arms of the evergreen trees.
And the sun is red like a pumpkin head.
It's shining so your nose won't freeze.
The world is your snowball.
see how it grows.
That's how it goes.
whenever it snows.
The world is your snowball just for a song.
Get out and roll it along.
It's a yum-yummy world made for sweethearts.
Take a walk with your favourite girl.
It's a sugar date.
what if spring is late.
In winter, it's a marshmallow world.

2004-12-22T18:53:00.000-08:00

Late at night when all the world is sleeping. I stay up and think of you and I wish on a star. That somewhere you are thinking of me too. Cause Im dreaming of you tonight. Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight. And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be. Than here in my room dreaming about you and me. Wonder if you ever see me and I wonder if you. Know I'm there. I just wanna hold you close but so far. All I have are dreams of you. So I wait for the day and the courage to say.How much I love you, yes i do. Late at night when all the world is sleeping. I stay up and think of you. And I still can't believe that. You came up to me and said I love you. I love you too. I'll be dreaming with you tonight. 'Till tomorrow and for all of my life. And there's nowhere in the world l'd rather be. Than here in my room dreaming with you endlessly.

2004-12-14T20:29:00.000-08:00

tuesday
had tuition todae. waited for miss tay for an hr. todae's tuition was okae lahs. yeps. haha. wonder wads everyone is doin mans. haha. like so quiet one. mmm. jeanette gave me a call. she jus rent anime again. she is gonna lent me to burn! yes. haha. dat means if im goin out on friday den i shall go get cds. i carn wait to go on friday! haha. i tink most probably can go? 70% to 30% lahs. haha. worse ting is dat miss tay asked me whether im free on thursday or friday. she wanna brin me n de rest to wild wild wet. my reaction was like again! i mean i dun mind goin but den if i go on thursday means i carn go on friday. i den dun wan ahs. haha. im kinda sicked of de rides dere alreadi. haha. no fun n challenge animore.

tmr gonna have chi tuition at 6. yucks mans. but no choice lahs. gonna meet jeanette n dunjun tmr at 5 to take dinner together. so dian deng pao! haha. a veri bright one! i dun wan lahs. startin frm tmr tuition wil b 2 hrs lahs. so borin n long. i wanna quit alreadi lahs but cus of jeanette dey all i dun wan. hee. mommie also ask me to continue. mus tink of wad to get on friday. haha. yeps. goin out soon. goin tiong for awhile. daddie saes to brin mommie for shoppin.

2004-12-13T17:53:00.000-08:00

okae. i jus read my dear silly sistar's blog. cus too long to write dats y im not taggin on de board kae. i do seriousli miss de times i had wif u these past 2 years. to me i have to balance my studies my frenship de same. i wil stil love u as much. witout u i wun have cum dis far. tink i wil b sumwhere else. its ur encouragements dat brought me here. u were alwaes dere when i nidded sumone. u were alwaes dere witout fail. when i cried u were dere. u were dere all de time. i miss u dearly. as much as i miss de rest. i wanna go back to sch! i wanna go back to sch! i wanna c u guys again. i miss u guys too much. thou we mae not b in de same klas we wil stil b as close. we r not gonna drift. im not gonna let dat happen. u r my best fren i cannot afford to lose u. we been thru ups n downs. we cried together. we had fun together. we r stil gonna b strong together. nth is gonna break us apart. cryin for sumone is lovin sumone. n i teared when i read de part on ur blog. those pp i cried for r de ones i love. but it doesn mean for those i dun cry for r not de ones i love. i love everyone but jus dat i love de ones whom i cried for more cus dey mean a million lots to me. listen kae. gwen. no matter wad. i wil alwaes b dere for u. alwaes foreva. we r not gonna drift apart. nvr. i wil stil b doin de same tings in sch. study. write letters to u all n everyting esp those mischivious stuffs. haha. oh ya. umm. give me ur timetable for nex year kae? cus we nid to organise everyting out. our recess meetin n everyting? yeps. study hard kae. no matter wad study hard. i noe frenship to u cums first. but den u nid to study hard. i wil alwaes b dere when u nid help. u can jus pop by den i can jus help u as much as i can. yeps. u wil alwaes b my dear sister n i wil alwaes love u! =)

2004-12-13T17:09:00.000-08:00

sunday
woke up at 7. so blardi early. onli had 5 hrs of sleep. went to outram dere for breakfast. laksa dere veri nice kae. haha. yeps. den aft dat went for shoppin. went to grandma's hse. i nvr fail to at least take a bite frm every dish lahs. thou its alwaes de same when we go back once in awhile to her place. yeps. but den i failed yesterdae. i was too full lahs. but at least i ate up all my fave dishes. stil have in my fridge downstairs. tink gonna have dem for dinner. yes! haha. nice.

went for trainin. wasn realli veri enthu cus jus hittin. carn realli do alot of attackin shots. did dat drill again. make one mistake den move. 2 baseliners n one net person. so stupid lahs. vollied quite alot cus alwaes my turn to stay right dere. count it on my luck. was quite scary cus over de other side no matter hu volley its stil damn strong. haha. but was fun. played water bomb again. tink wil b de last time alreadi. yeps. went to c sunset aft bathin. but wasn realli nice cus it seems like its gonna rain. best ting is dat played catchin. haha. din play since dunno how many years. so fun okae. but daddie spoit my fun when i was havin a nice time. at least now can c i actualli improve a bit. but stil nid to train on stamina.

monday
did nth lahs. bored. gonna die thou. i haven touched on my work yet too. but hiya. do at nite lahs. hee. i wanna eat fishballs noodles. de one mommie cooked for lunch. yeps. so so nice kae. finished in 10 mins lahs. haha. realli veri veri nice. yeps.

*it: Baby I love you and i'll never let you go. But if I have to boy I think that you should know. All the love we make can never be erase. And i promise you that you will never be replaced. I love you yes i do. I'll be with you as long as you want me to. Until the end of time. From the day I met you I know we've be together. And now I know I wanna be with you forever. I can say i'm truly happy to the same. You've made me think I'll die and live my life hesitate. There's never been no doubt in my mind. That i'll regret ever having you by my side But if the day come that i'll have to let you go. I think that something I should probadly let you know. With everything that i spent with you. Then i will miss you cuz i'm happy that i have you at all. I feel for you yes i do. I'll be with you as long as you want me to. Until the end of time. But i will never let you go no matter what cause i wanna be by your side foreva. =)

decided to put this song cus it realli fits. yeps. hee. its for u too.

2004-12-11T23:26:00.000-08:00

im tired. but den i wil stil wait. i feel like im havin a fever. god! cannot. tmr i stil have to play water n train. if im down wif a fever den means i carn go keppel n means totalli die tmr lahs. cannot. dats de most impt tmr kae. yeps. hee. nid to stay strong. yeps. si bian tai looks chao gay. haha. i said it into his face. but its de fact. he looks wierd. he keeps saein my hair is too short. rubbish lahs. n i cudden stop laughin jus now. cus diden keep makin me laugh lahs. he used to call si bian tai chicken backside. haha. den todae sabrina, rachel, mavis n i told him dat we call him si bian tai he laugh until like eh. i dunno. haha. yeps. den nicholas, diden, rachel n one more person ganged up bullie me! dey keep knockin my head lahs. i carn do aniting too. cus all like in pri sch lahs. summore lower pri. i sure cannot do aniting. but can c diden is scared of me! haha. yeps. i nid to stay awake! yeps! =) n best is dat i love de bracelet kae! hee. love it so so much.

*it : cong ni yan jing kan zhe zi ji zui xin fu de dao ying. wo zai shou xin de mo qi shi ming tian de zhi ying. wu lun shi yuan jing shen me shi ji. zai tian tang yong bao huo shu ye liu li. wo ai ni wo gan qu. wei zhi de ren he ming yun. wo ai ni wo yuan yi. zhun ni lai ba hu de jue ding. shi jie bian jing. ou er wo zhen de bu dong ni. you you shui zhen dong zi ji. wang wang liang ge ren duo qin mi. shi tou guo shang hai lai zheng ming. xiang jiao lu bu an wo jiu ren xing. ba shi lou ni pa suo yi ni sheng qi. wo ai ni rang wo ting. ni de pi bei he kong ju. wo ai ni wo xiang qin. ni jue qiang dao ji xian de xin.....wo zhang qi suo you ai wei cheng feng yu de jin di. dang kuang fei hao yu xiang rang ni chuan kou qi. bei ge po de xing xin. xu yao shi jian quan yi. meng xiang chan zhe huai yi. wei lai kan bu qing. jiu jing jing de yong bao qu chuan di neng liang he yong qi. wo ai ni.....wo ai ni wo xiang qu. wei zhi de ren he ming yun. wo ai ni rang wo ting. ni de pi bei he kong ju. wo ai ni wo xiang qin. ni jue qiang dao ji xian de xin. na li dou yi qi qu. yi qi yang wang xing xing. yi qi zou chu sen lin. yi qi ping chang hui yi. yi qi wu hui du ji. yi qi yu guo tian qing. yi qi geng dong zi ji. yi qi zao dao yi yi. wo ai ni. wo bu yao mei you ni. wo bu neng mei you ni. que bu neng mei you ni.

2004-12-08T17:38:00.000-08:00

tuesday
went to keppel to play water bomb. got totalli drenched frm head to toe. but den its okae. de bad ting is de wound dat hurts lahs. yeps. played team first. in yang's team together wif jasper n edmund. den aft dat played individual. haha. dat one is de most fun one lahs. bjorn keep usin de pail to pour water over me. worse he tried stuffin all those plastic bag into my shirt twice but den de third time everyting went into my sb lahs. crazie lahs. but it was realli nice to get drenched wet plus it was rainin. haha.

went to put our stuffs in de locker. sum went to bathe onli claudia, amanda, bjorn, yang n me played in de children's shower room. haha. but claudia n amanda left to bathe early. bjorn started spittin water at me lahs. yuck! all his saliva. it feels like a guewy monster jus lick u lahs. haha. but he din spit de correct wae until i did it to him den he keep doin it on me. i was tryin to wash de feelin awae by rinsin myself wif water n wad u noe. bjorn took powder n started pourin over me lahs. idiot. den yang took shampoo to help me wash off but it doesn help. haha. tink its makin it worse lahs. but realli veri veri funnie.

amanda decided to go watch movie. den claudia keep beggin me to go. actualli cannot go de kae. but den daddie allowed in de end. yeps. went to watch polar express wif bjorn, amanda, yang, claudia, eugene, edmund, kunyang n aaron. i started throwin popcorn at kunyang lahs. haha. den he sound so serious so not fun one. haha. den started throwin at everyone le. haha. gave yang a ride to orchard mrt. n went home le lohs. haha.

yesterdae was totalli nice lahs. totalli totalli nice. but it wud have been perfect if bjorn din get in de wae all de time. haha. but ya. nice dae yesterdae. so so nice. sunday gonna play water again aft trainin. yes! haha =)

wednesday
todae is nth lahs. haha but i got a er zi. bjorn is my er zi. haha. he calls me mommie. haha. funnie lahs. but he is realli realli veri cute n veri notti. yeps.

*it : Theres always that one person that will always have your heart. You never see it comin cuz ur blinded from the start. Know that your that one for me. Clear for everyone to see. Baby You Will always be My Boo. I don't know about ya'll. But I know about us. I was in love with you when we were younger you were mine...MY BOO. But I see from time to time, I still feel like...MY BOO. You see no matter how I try to hide....MY BOO. Yes I remember boi cuz after we kissed. I could only think about ur lips. Yes I remember boi the moment I knew you were the one I could spend my life with. I was there and you were my babbyy.

2004-12-06T20:04:00.000-08:00

saturday
went to warren lahs. wad else. watch my didi swim. stupid boi. halfwae thru de lesson he dun wanna swim cus his goggles spoil. den he scared he sink or smth lahs. went to lot 1 for dinner. my xiao wu gui was hurt kae! sobs lahs. dey saw xiao wu gui in my bag den sabrina ask to let her c. den i let her c lahs. den hu noe dat stupid gur wanna snatch xiao wu gui frm sabrina. den she grab de head so so hard lahs. den both also dun wanna let go. kaos. my heart tore apart lahs. i shouted at de gur den i took it back. she stil dare to smile lahs. stupid. she stil wan to c it again lohs. negotiate wif me but den i stil dun wanna let her c.

sunday
not a realli realli good dae lahs. but i was blardi hyper n excited n happie n everyting in de mornin lahs. thou i onli had 4 hrs plus of sleep. went to suntec for early lunch. saw zhengyang n his fren. he went for church. so guess kellie wil noe him lahs. yeps.

went for trainin. dunno y keep tokin too. onli 8 pp trained. nic, esther, me, marcus, sean, wenqi, bill n shengyang. but wenqi onli trained for awhile. did approach shots. have to play off de point so also means to 'kill' de ball when de server serve de ball into de box. my court have esther, shengyang, wenqi n me. but wenqi came ltr jus play for awhile onli. so funnie kae. esther n i gang up bullie shengyang. n now i noe y everyting i c shengyang i wil laugh. haha. n its also a technique to let him miss de ball. cus when we laugh he wil laugh too. haha. den he was stupid enuf to ask wenqi a qn. dat was abt how i can hit so hard. den wenqi replied shengyang dat was to ask me. stupid shengyang. n i realise wenqi is bias! haha. he give balls to esther so nice one lahs. den give me n shengyang so diff to get. coach used de ball to hit me kae! so bad lahs. but den its cus i keep tokin n tokin n tokin non stop. haha. n worse coach ask me y i keep tokin. how i noe ahs. haha. n i realise shengyang alwaes laugh at me when i get scoldin kae! mean idiot. n coach is jealous cus i call nic n esther dear. haha. i cudden stop laughin lahs. n its all esther n shengyang's fault hu ask dem keep makin me laugh. den shengyang sae so loud in front of everyone : if jorain continues to laugh like dat she is goin to die. stupid. rubbish lahs! oh! n shengyang is like dunjun's twin okae. haha. shall tell jeanette dat. den she can either choose dunjun or his 'twin'.

aft trainin. everyting went bad lahs. dun ask abt it. realli realli bad. tink now i shall not hear i believe alreadi. it makes me even more sad when im alreadi sad enuf. n everyting wil start cumin down. stupid.

monday
jus came back frm wild wild wet! haha. nic's mommie came to pick me up den go to nic's hse to pick nic, sandra n melissa. we started to play all de rides. haha. we played ulah lar first. so so fun kae. den went to play slide up. stupid lifeguard. put de float so near de end. move a little sure go down lahs. den he ask nic n my name. i shall not play de wave pool animore. its tirin kae. once capsize nid to get up. n it takes alot of strength lahs. like givin birth. hee. ate kfc for lunch. freezin cold aft gettin up frm de water. den went to play shoik river. i sittin on de float. den suddenly sumone pushed me down. n i realise is dat lifeguard dat i met last 2 weeks ago at wild wild wet. in charge of ulah lar. stupid. but he hit is head against sumone's float. retribution! went to play ulah lar again. den 'nic's fren' was dere. haha. bfor goin into de float he sae he noe all our names. but he got onli nic's name rite. we got him totalli wet. haha. keep splashin water at him. so so fun kae. yeps. dats abt it. went to buy mcflurry aft we got our frm dere. nic's daddie gave me a ride home. yeps. hee.

carn wait for tmr! water bomb fight! yes! i noe hu to aim alreadi. gonna get de person totalli wet. haha. watch out!

2004-12-04T13:46:00.000-08:00

wednesday
went for trainin in de mornin. had a ride to far east opposite de bus stop. have to thank weejia's mom mans. haha. if not i have to walk out of keppel to catch a bus all by myself. haha.

thursday
jie jie's weddin dae. had to wake up at 5.15 but den overslept a little. haha. luckie daddie woke me up mans. onli had 3 hrs of sleep on dat nite lahs. haha. but den amazin was i wasn tired mans. haha. reached uncle's hse went straight up to jie jie's room. den eh. dis woman was helpin her do her make up n everyting so carn tok to her. waited for kor kor to arrive. my younger cousin so funnie kae. he was suppose to open de door for de groom lahs. so like ya. haha. but den he take de ang bao first open up n c whether got more dan 100 bucks bfor openin de door for kor kor. haha. but den bad ting is dat de gate was locked. rachel jie jie, yuan jie jie n another jie jie keep askin wad kor kor can give dem. so he took one ang bao out but dat wasn de end yet. haha. yuan jie jie gave him one envolope inside dere r 10 qns. he have to get 8 out of 10 right bfor he can enter. the qns were quite ez lahs. stupid for him to make dat 3 mistakes. luckie got yuan jie jie to help him mans. if not he dun nid to cum in alreadi. but den rachel jie jie ask wad he can give dem again. another ang bao cum out. hu noes he gotta act. haha. act how he first met jie jie n how he proposed to her. haha. guess kor kor is a veri shy person lahs. haha. n quite soft-spoken. but dats good cus my jie is de opposite of him. haha. so act. den stil not enuf kae. de other jie jie ask wad he can give dem again. so another ang bao. haha. but den he have to make a speech to us abt how he wil treat my jie jie n how much he love her. at first he was so soft lahs. i at de door also cannot hear so no choice have to sae cannot hear. haha. so he had to sae all over again. he passed it so let him in. but den bfor goin into jie jie's room he have to make another speech to my jie. haha. my mommie join in de fun. she din wan him to cum in. haha. so ya lohs. like dat.

at nite was de worse for me lahs. had to wear dat stupid ting. haha. stupid older cousin sae not nice. den i din wanna go lahs. reached dere. all my jies, kors, aunts n uncles sae nice. tink is fake lahs. dey sae is fresh look. even my other cousins sae dat. but guess its fake! i was damn quiet at de beginnin. no one to tok to mahs. so like ya. kept my mouth shut. kor kor tot i got bgr prob n smth like dat. so stupid lahs. dun have lahs! haha. let me c his gf photo. i tot he change gf lahs den said: u change new gf ahs? haha. den his face was like no lahs. haha. sorrie lahs. cus last time i saw she got short hair mahs like mine. den now long liaos of cus i cannot recognise rite. everyting went well lahs. had to tok to all those aunts n uncles. worse dey tot i was a swimmer. cus dey sae im veri tane. haha. but im not. im a tennisholic lahs.

everyting went well thru out de nite. bfor leavin de place have to shake hands wif de bride n groom n everyting. my auntie so so happie lahs. haha. like sum small gur keep shakin my hand dun wanna let go den keep saein thank you thank you. haha. my uncle laugh until mouth cannot close. haha. jie jie was okae. no pressure for her thou. she promised to buy chox back for me aft havin her honeymoon in italy. gonna miss her mans. tink she leavin tonite or tmr. cum to kor kor was de one i tok to him. haha. thank him n said dat he mus thank me for not makin his dae diff on his big day. haha. n he actualli did. but de bad ting is umm. he sae dat i mus thank he for makin de groom's dae diff on my big dae. rubbish lahs. hu sae wil get dat dae. rubbish!

friday
din go for trainin cus i overslept. got xcuse thou. haha. cus i slept late. went down to keppel to play wif bryant. but was dyin lahs. haha. cus kinda tired. aft dat he went for a swim aft lunch. so joined edmund dey all lohs. yeps. jus keep playin lahs. haha. im under ziyang's debt. haha. i owe him big time kae. mmm. thankies for bein dere for me kae. =) realli helped alot lahs. yesterdae was veri veri veri nice for me. yeps. haha. thankies small boi.

2004-11-29T15:08:00.000-08:00

sunday
had trainin. eh. was okae lahs. jus dat its a bit pathetic cus onli 6 pp trained? prac sum serves den start playin match. partnered danielle doubles n played against nic n grace. den partnered marcus doubles n played against sean n grace. played singles wif grace too. din have physical actualli jus sprint to de first doubles line n back 5 times den finish.

gonna have match tmr against jade n cheryl. tink we got a higher chances of winnin. but de ting is i haven been focusin much. so like ya. played realli badly lahs. hope it wil b my day tmr. mus play realli well tmr. yeps yeps.
tink gonna have an xtra trainin cumin up. or can sae sure gonna have. god. gonna b so tired. but my efforts have paid off alreadi. so im happie. hee. selections r gonna take place. yes!

gonna remind ya:
I wanna love you forever and this is all i am asking of you. 10,000 lifetimes together. Your love will light my way. and for every day I live the promise that I made is I will never let you go.

its a time when our dreams felt so real. just out of reach but not too far to feel. together we'd finally make them come true. cause anythings possible when i am with you. but they kept on saying we'd never amount to anything.... all of the dreams we build up from the ground. They never believe them they just tore them down. we will rebuild them from the start, we will rebuild them from the heart. cause once all we wanted seemed so far away. but with everystep it was closer each day. the more that we tried it was within our grasp the more that they told us that it wouldn't last. but it isn true. we are gonna last forever. and nothing is gonna bring us apart.

2004-11-28T23:00:00.000-08:00

jus came back frm dat stupid place. todae can consider as de latest i eva came back frm 'hell'. but de good ting is i bought 4 more goldfishies. hee. nice nice. n best ting is i din c si bian tai for 3 weeks. n dats a good ting for me. yes! he is a hell lot of a nuisance lahs. i was mouldin dere but my mind was runnin thru everyting. everyting i cud tink abt. mus most i tot abt was dat one impt ting again.

*it, for ya:
life can be distance between us. days even years could pass on but the love that lies between us will always be worth holdin on. together forever always from the dawn till the end of each day. no matter how far away you are we're together forever always. the dream i dream about you keep me holdin on.I vow to never break your heart or never let you down. for better or worse, I will always be around. and with you here, to share my life so complete. because of you I know how it feels to be. your loves amazing and like the rain it fell on me. wanting it more and more cause your loves in the air. it's you im loving for always n dreaming of you tonight. hoping you will be holding me tight n never ever letting me go. you came into my life made everything go right. so sweet and tenderly. unlock my love, you've got the key. This kind of love i just can't hide n im gonna love you for always. muacks* n hugs*.

2004-11-27T13:03:00.000-08:00

im stil tired. but my mind is filled wif so many tings. dis n dat. im gonna put all those bad tings awae. awae frm my mind. i carn tink dat much abt it. it wil onli affect me. not gonna let wad pp sae to overtake me. stil goin on to carry dis on. i wun b dat stupid to let it go. smth i love so much. no. i cannot.

its for u:
My baby gives me satisfaction.
My baby gives me all his love.
From now on, I'm gonna love my baby.
My Baby is a full-time lover.
I know he's the only one who can.
Rocks my world and I don't mean maybe.
His love is like a long, hot Summer.
Calms me down like a cool, cool rain.
His sweet wonderful ways amaze me.
It's no wonder why I love my baby.
im not gonna stop lovin you.
gonna love you forever.
not gonna regret.
not gonna get tired of you.
its all bcus how u amaze me with your love.

2004-11-26T14:02:00.000-08:00

sorrie. haven been bloggin for daes. aniwae. im here to settle sum tings! haha.

kel - heys. umm. here to xplain to u dat umm. im innocent. cus i seriousli din btray u. n i dun blame u for bein mad at me. but umm. ya. dis is smth realli bad. din xpect it to happen. i dun even noe how to tell u pp abt it. im realli sorrie kae. i noe i promised u everyting wads gonna happen nex year but i carn stay. i have to go for it. i mean ya. im realli sorrie. but thou it was all a misunderstandin i wanna u to noe dat i wil nvr eva btray u. wad for? i mean u r my dear twin sis kae. dere is no reason y i shld do dat. so ya. so guess its time for u to take back ur words abt me in ur blog! haha. mus mus kae. cus i din do it! haha. aniwae. all da best to ya. study hard kae. n stop saein u r stupid! stupid gur. stop saein dat. i stil love u all de same. love ya lots! muacks* =)

2004-11-18T21:00:00.001-08:00

went back to sch todae to take my form. i was so so happie okae! saw de paper wrote dere 3a n dat means im in de same klas as hit! haha. yay! but tink de happiest was when miss wong called me. i was wonderin y wud miss wong call me cus i din noe its frm sch. den she said dat i can go up to combi 2. den i was tinkin but i din appeal but of cus i din said dat to her. duh! haha. so ya. im officialli in 3a! haha. great. so so happie kae. my sci combis n humans combis r totalli de same as hit! haha. yay! had to go back to change my books too. i kinda miss my phy books. haha. but stil its okae.

im scare nex year lahs. i mean i was tinkin whether i realli went up based on my standards. i asked everyone n dey said i did. but de prob is y is it me dat dey choose but not de ones hu appeal? is it fair to those hu appealed?

fe, nic, kel n gwen: sorrie guys. im realli sorrie. i din mean to like umm. make u sad or smth? i din wan to leave u guys too. but i have to cus ya. realli sorrie kae. kel. i promised to sit wif u in klas n everyting but den now i carn. i din wan it to happen to. hope u r not angrie wif me kae. i dunno how to tell u guys abt it. realli scare u all wil get angrie or sad or wad. n if i dun sae n u guys found out urselves de outcum wil b de same. so like ya. but i stil love you peeps de same kae. love you guys alot. we wil alwaes b frens 4eva not onli frens alone but realli realli good frens for life. study hard too. i wil alwaes b dere for u all when u nid me. can jus drop by my klas, locker or umm even send me a letter abt how u guys r doin. if in nid of ani help i wil help u guys for sure. =) take care!

*it: If tomorrow never comes
I would want just one thing
I would tell it to the stars and the sun
I would write it for the world to see
And it's you. =)

2004-11-15T21:34:00.000-08:00

sat
went to suntec in de mornin. eh. den did sum shoppin. went into echo. decided to find smth to wear on jie jie's weddin n found a black dress. its realli nice to wear together wif jeans. so i got it. den dis salesgur asked me to try sum stupid outfit. its damn damn stupid lahs. den i told her i dun wan. all thankies to mommie lahs. ask me jus try it. den i tried. mommie immediately sae she wans it. its damn a disgustin outfit. n i nvr wear it bfor . bought a belt.

my relatives came. saw jie jie's invitation card n wad did i c below?!!? no black outfits n dress allowed! so idiotic lahs. my uncle set dat stupid rule cus he saes weddin cannot wear black! den wad else do i left wif to wear on dat dae? i have to wear dat stupid outfit. stupid lahs. no choice gotta wear. yuck!

sunday
actualli was suppose to go keppel yesterdae de. but smth happened at home plus aunt called up last min sae dat she wil b cumin n gonna meet us at raffles. so stupid lahs. lost my chance of goin to c *it okae. went dere for lunch. dere were no coms lahs. dey din wan de service animore so all we have left r sum stupid arcade machines. worse ting was i fell on my back. stupid. pain-

den went take jap buffet for dinner. aunt's treat. its damn damn nice. she ordered de jap wine. everyone drank includin me. its realli nice. but de bad ting is aft i drank it my whole face turned realli realli red. like an apple lahs. n i felt like sleepin but i carn cus if i sleep dere no one is gonna brin me home. nap for awhile aft gettin home ard 9. suppose to wake up at 11 to blog but overslept. woke up at 2 in de mornin. was lazy to on de com so in de end din blog but lied in bed n stared at de ceiling.

monday
went suntec again. daddie's idea. bought new clothes again. den went to keppel. its so borin dere lahs. n my back stil hurts like shit. went to orchard to get my bag in de evenin. finalli! was so so happie kae. den went to crystal jade for dinner. de porridge is de best! dats abt it. yeps.

135 dear n 246 dear:
carn wait to c u guys nex week. we r goin wild wild wet! haha. yay! hope 135 dear u can go. jus keep askin ur parents until dey let u to go. =P it wil b damn damn fun on dat dae. haha. we r gonna play like mad. hope hit can go. yeps yeps. den it wil b great! haha.

*it:
sorrie abt yesterdae kae? actualli wanna go de but den dat ting happened so din go. yeps. eh. ya. missed de chance thou. mmm. good luck for ur paper tmr kae? yeps yeps. exams wil b over realli realli soon de.

Never knew someone special like you
You don't give up wouldn't stop at anything to give up
You were everything i am dreaming of
I'm yours and nothing's gonna stop me
Falling for you, you finally caught me
Wasted time on boys who did not treat me right
I can count on your devotion day and night
Thank god that you finally made me realise
The only one I need was standing right there waiting patiently
I've never loved a love so real so true
And that's all because of you. =) grins-

2004-11-09T22:43:00.000-08:00

im bored n im sad. im disappointed n i feel cheated. hate dis kind of feelin okae. my didi is in a bad mood. all thanks to my maid. my maid said she was cumin back for sure. but she din. we went all de wae to de airport n waited for her but she nvr appeared lahs. wa lau. den din even call can. at least call back mahs. if not dun keep saein u r cumin back when u r not lahs. imagine my didi was so happie dis mornin dat she was cumin back. den he went to de airport keep callin for her but she nvr appeared. its damn annoyin lahs.

den when we left de airport my didi keep cryin for her until he fell asleep. even noe he is askin for her lahs. every sentence dat cums out of his mouth is : where is kakak? i wan kakak. sheesh lahs. where de hell is she.

actualli nth is impossible. jus open ur heart n tell him lahs. at least even u dun have a chance jus let him noe? its beta thou. dun keep hidin n stop hintin. it wil nvr work. jus tell him straight lahs. its worse if u dun n give him up. but no matter wad i wil alwaes b dere for u.

*it, 135 dear, 246 dear n de rest wil alwaes b my boos!

dis is dedicated to *it: zai ni zuo you hai you duo jiu
zhe me yang cai neng rang shi jian dao liu
mei yi fen mei yi miao dou zhen zhong
wo jing de shou bu yuan fang song
yao ji de
wo men de gu shi zhen nan wang
tai duo de hui yi he xi wang
bu guan ta you duo feng kuan
wo yuan yi yi sheng shou chang
wo men de gu bu neng wang
tai duo de qing jie yao fa zhan
bu yao fang qi ying wei you qi tian yuan fen hui ji xu
wo zhi dao ni ji mo
yi ge ren que shi hao nan guo
si nian shi yi zhong tong
mei you ni jiao wo zhe me huo
shen bian chong man xiu huo
bu jian ding jiu rong yi fan cuo
ni shi fou neng kan jian wei lai de shou chang
rang wo men yi qi yan wan

From the day that I saw you
I knew that we would pursue
Cause the chemistry
we felt that day
Felt so real, and so true
Looking back
on a year we spent together
How its been, what we went through
Although weve had our little ups and downs
Weve still pulled through
My love for you will never end
Youll always be a part of me
As long as time keeps on passing by
Youll always be my *it
Everytime I look at you,
I cant believe
Ive found a love so true
I took my time to put my trust in you
I must admit it was so hard to do
And every minute that
I spend with you
You make me believe
I have nothing to loose and
Deep down I always knew that you would be mine
If you were to go,
I dont know
Youre the only one who sweeps me off my feet
Makes my soul go weak
The only one who makes my heart wanna beat and I,
I could never live without you
You know that what I feel has to be true
Cause youre my, my sweet love.

2004-11-09T13:37:00.000-08:00

okae. it has been 3 days since i ever blogged. mmm. past few daes was okae. saw *it on sunday. trainin on sunday was kinda scarie cus its a new environment to me wif all de diff kind of tennis players ard. all r damn good. saw xh on sunday too. told kor dat i miss her n she appeared in front of me. haha.

jus came back. went to buy lunch. mommie wans to eat teriyaki so gotta go get it for her. i miss *it now. have been tinkin abt *it de whole day. mmm. n i miss 135 dear, 246 dear, fe, hit, nic, kel n pris. i love u guys lots.

now reminds me of a song : can somebody explain to me.
why everybody is trying to be.
living like a celebrity.
doing what they see on MTV.
ice is cool but I am looking for more,
simple things is what my heart beats for.

Cause that's me.
I don't ask for much .
Baby having you is enough.

You ain't got to buy nothing.
It's not what I want.
Baby it's You.
We don't have to go nowhere.
Its not what I want.
Baby it's you.
It's not for what you got.
I know you got a lot .
No matter what you do.
You always gettin Hot.
It's You,It's You.
Baby all I want is You.

It don't matter that your car is fly.
And your rims are spinning on the side and.
It don't matter where we go tonight .
Cause if I'm with you .
I'll be alright.
That's cool but I'm lookin for more.
Its your love that my heart beats for.

Cause thats me.
Don't have to spend a dime.
Baby, I just want your time.

2004-11-06T23:02:00.000-08:00

went back to sch for open hse todae. totalli like no one until ltr. but onli like a few pp onli. but it was okae cus can c nic, hit, gwen n valala. haha. den we toked like we used to. missed dem so much okae.

den gwen followed me to warren. but decided to go lot 1 to shop n all. we ran aft de shuttled bus. stupid. so embarassin! but managed to catch de bus cus dis jie jie in de bus told de bus driver to stop cus we were runnin aft it.

went to lot 1 to shop. haha. practicalli walkin here n dere. jus did onli like window shoppin? haha. we had so much tings to buy lahs but din brin enuf money. one lunch for us n dat goes our money. we wanted to make another frenship necklace but decided to go back n get it if we stil have money left. but we din. den wanted to eat jap buffet but its like 16.90++. plus until de total its 20.70 for one person. n ya. we din eat it. so went to pizza hut to eat. n its like total 34 plus but at least stil got leftover money.

den went to take neoprint. so funnie. we actualli missed de bus so had to sit sumwhere to wait for de bus. tok n tok n tok. den got dis woman takin her dog for a walk. so ke ai! tink its a westie. den it kinda bite my finger but not pain. haha. tink it was more interested in de food. its so ke ai. it jus suddenly stopped in front of us n lied down n looked at her master. haha. it refused to walk.

umm. aft gwen left it was totalli borin. i carn go into de arcade cus i was in sch u. stupid. went to c my didi swim. haha. so ke ai. he wet my sch u lahs. keep spittin water at me until totalli wet. went to de sports lounge. si bian tai was braggin abt his mei. she looks okae lahs. quite sweet lookin. tink he likes prac every gur or maeb he doesn like ani onli saein it for nth or tryin to impress me. how rubbish can it b lahs.

my fone almost dead lahs. haha. de little kids were takin my fone to take photo of demselves n luffin at it. so funnie. but dey were realli ke ai. when i let dem have wad dey wan n dey were happie im happie too. dunno y too. jus naturalli. n i mus rmbr to get little shawn n little felicia deir bookmarks. haha. shawn is like 5 n felicia is like 7 n both r keen in readin. so ke ai. have a little sis call qiqi hu is onli 2. deir maid is my maid's veri veri good fren. qiqi loves to eat i tink. everytime i have biscuits or snacks she for sure wil cum to me for it. haha. yeps.

aniwae. nid to go. last words for tonite. i realli miss everyone of u thou i onli saw a few of u. miss kel, pris n fe lots. din c u guys for like umm. 2 days? haha. but i seriousli miss u all. umm. n i miss *it de most. hee. i love u guys lots lots but i love *it lots lots more. haha. but stil i do miss n love u guys. =) no matter where we go to nex year alwaes rmbr dat we wil alwaes b together as one. i wil alwaes b dere for u guys no matter wad happens.

2004-11-05T13:40:00.000-08:00

not feelin ani beta. im tokin lesser dan i usualli do. so dat mus b smth good. guess daddie mommie noes y. im such a loser. everyone else is gettin into a klas wif a beta combination dan im. such a loser. nth is gonna make me smarter. nth is gonna help me tink smarter. its jus a wae of consolin me by saein: ur combination is good n its okae jus work harder nex year. wad do dey noe abt wad im tinkin. tot my hard work wud pay off but it din. landed up in a stupid klas. n another wae of consolin me is by saein: if u were in my sch u wud alreadi b in pure.

oh rite. if i was. dis kind of results can nvr get me into a pure klas unless de sch has a lower standard of wad. i have no mood to play. so decided to skip trainin todae. even if i had gone for trainin i wun help much. guess i wil jus sulk de whole entire trainin n wun even sae a word.

dis is gonna last a few days i tink. i wil b fine by den i tink. not gonna b okae. jus gonna me fine.

2004-11-04T13:49:00.000-08:00

got back my results. thou daddie mommie r satisfied wif it im not. i mean i did improve since sec 1 till now but it isn enuf. expected to get into a pure klas at least a double. but i din. went into a combination dat is okae. but stil. im onli takin 1 pure sci n 2 combine sci. wad de hell. its like de end of de world to me. kinda went to ask whether we can opt up but dey woman saes dat dere is onli a lower chance of gettin it. wadeva lahs. generalli my klas din realli do well compared to de rest of de klasses. tink mostly those goin into pure r frm 2d n 2e.

jus carn understand y those gettin de forms for choosin de combis which r for pure klasses dun appreciat wad dey got. i mean if i got an orange form n its de combi for gettin into a double pure i wil b damn happie n wun even sae a word alreadi. among my clique, hit did de best. she got de pink form which she can choose ani combis. but of cus best take 3a. but she wans to get into 3c. good one hit. u did realli well.

cried like hell when i got my results. all my cliques cried except hit n fe. i shud have done beta but now its too late to regret it. din wan to go home at all. wanted to linger out in de streets n nvr cum back. called mommie to tell her abt it. n told her i was sorrie n i let her down cus i carn get into a double pure klas. im so disappointed in myself. i carn even let my parents get happie abt my results. i tot dis time i cud. but stil. i din. dey chose combi 3.1. which has pure bio, combine chem n phy, e maths, a maths/ accounts, n im takin pure geog n elective lit plus ss. nid to do well nex year. n now more playin. sigh. realli let dem down thou dey r satisfied n happie wif my results.

2004-11-03T22:17:00.000-08:00

todae was totalli fun! haha. hyper! had trainin in de mornin at 9 in keppel. wasn realli dat fun. aft dat went to de gym to lift n all. actualli was supposed to go out wif jeanette dey all den go for tuition together but dey din confirm wif me so no choice lohs. i also carn go cus my mommie changed her mind n wanted to pick me up early. played tennis wif nic n bryant. was so nice okae! haha. its like whack n whack n try to keep de ball in de court. aft dat went to daddie's office. n went back to keppel again cus my didi wan to play com.

went to clementi to watch waterpolo match again. todae was outram against acs (barker). outram lost 4-1. its good dat dey kept de score low thou dey lost. n i jus realised dat i have a cousin in acs in waterpolo. sheesh lahs. guess my familie too big liaos. totalli dunno hu is related to me lahs. same age as farris. looks almost de same like daryl but he is taller n darker. good swimmer mans. look at him swim wif de ball towards his opponents goal post is like he is swimmin for his life? haha. thou im tired i stil wanna play. hyper mahs. haha.

tmr goin sch le. gonna get my result n choose my combination for nex year. sheesh mans. scarie! haha. but its not as scarie as de one cumin. 12th is de one dat im realli realli scared. hope i can get in. but de best ting is i can c gwen, valala, hit n de rest! yay! haha. i miss dem so so much. but i miss *it de most. yeps. shall end here. my knees hurt. haha. gone-

2004-11-02T18:36:00.000-08:00

stupid mosquitoe bite woke me up. was havin such a nice dream lahs kae. spoil de whole ting. idiots. had to take myself as a human bait to get u idiot to cum out n bite me again so dat i can kill u. n i did. haha! i win! such a loser. i hate mosquitoes. dey suck. n dey r sure out of my world. n de bites r itchin okae! ah!

i wan my dream back! sobs! i wan my dream back. its so nice lahs. hardly can even get it kae. rubbish mosquitoes. one day im gonna make u guys extinct. c how u r gonna breed n bite humans again. idiots mans.

gonna have trainin tmr. but i aint excited abt it cus its sch trainin. onli interested. rather go to de gym. but im goin ltr aft trainin. wonder hu is goin tmr. gonna play tennis wif nic n bryant aft trainin. den go to de gym. yay! rather play wif dem. haha. cus its nicer. im stil tired. but hu cares. im stil goin for trainin tmr. stil goin thou im at de verge of breakin down cus im tired! haha. but im not gonna b okae.

n stupid gur. jus get ur own spellin of words n ur own trademark. maeb ur trademark shld b ' i like to COPY . ' stop copyin. its realli annoyin. jus get ur stupid ass off n get ur own life. stop bein jus like one of us. stop takin our tings to let pp tink dat u r cool when u r not loser. jus shut ur blardi idiot mouth n f*** off.

2004-11-02T09:53:00.000-08:00

im so bored. got nth to do. im missin everyone. watched america's nex top model yesterdae nite. carn believe dat cadie was eliminated. it shud b cameille okae! yuck. i hate her. stupid diginity of hers. alwaes tink dat she is de best among de rest. yuck. april rawks! she is damn pretty. have dat face dat makes everyone attracted to her. xiomara was out last episode. she is so much beta dan cameille. de nex one goin out beta b camielle. n de last one stayin beta b april. haha. 135s n 246s wad r u guys doin now? haha. guess dey carn hear me. mmm. missin u pp kae. yeps. =) missin *it too. gonna stop rite here cus dun have aniting more else to write. haha. yeps. gone-

2004-11-01T18:32:00.000-08:00

*yawn*. jus woke up not long ago. managed to pack my stuffs properly. now not as messie. if not mommie n daddie sure wil nag n nag n keep on braggin n all to get me to clean up my room. todae is monday n dats means its de first dae of de month. yay! wednesday gonna b at keppel till daddie cums to pick me for tuition in de evenin. gonna play tennis almost de whole dae n go to de gym wif bryant n de rest i tink. haha. hope wednesday's trainin wil b fun. *pray* hees =P.

wonder wad 246s is doin now. i tink 135s is playin maplestorie ba. din noe she plays dat. haha. si bian tai called me while i was sleepin so it means dat i dun have return de call n tok to si bian tai. haha! i win! im missin *it now. missin *it like crazie. its like 8 days witout cin *it alreadi. no idea whether i wil b able to c dis week. *it rawks my world. totalli. n umm. 135s, 246s, hit, kel, nic, pris n fe rawks my world too. haha. mus rmbr. if not i wil c more pp cumin aft me wif de big black stapler. n i jus realised it mae not b me. yay! so i dun have to worrie animore i tink. haha. jus wait n c. gonna have my dinner soon. oh. n bfor i go. i love all u guys kaes? as in 135s n 246s all n oh! nic, weejia n de rest of de gurs in 12.30 klas. gonna miss u guys. n love *it lots! hees. im out of here- whoosh!

2004-11-01T14:02:00.000-08:00

jus came back frm lunch. god mans. its rainin n worse thunderstorm n all. haha. had to share a stupid umbrella wif my mommie n didi. didi had to wear his raincoat. so ke ai! haha. so funnie too kae. was walkin back home den when de lighnin strikes u c everyone if front of u stop. haha. all stop dere n said nth until heard de thunder den said smth n continue to walk. my didi was coverin his ears thru out de ting until he reached home. n when he reached home n was under de shelter he did sum funnie ting n went yes yes yes. haha. its still rainin now. but no more thunder. wonder how was de Os paper todae. hope its okae for *it.

2004-10-31T22:45:00.000-08:00

forget it. carn help it mans. i have to sae dis if not i carn sleep. have been keepin it in me all dae. i miss everyone esp *it. feelin so bad now okae. i mean ya. real bad. smth is missin in me n i noe wad it is but im not gonna sae it. i feel like saein it but guess *it is asleep. forget it. shall cry. -sobs- haha. oh! okae. dun nid cry. i jus said it. haha. kae. feelin much much beta now. mmm. dis is 'dedicated' to *it : my love for ya wil nvr end. u wil alwaes b a part of me. as long as time goes on passin by. love ya! =) hee. de end-

2004-10-31T22:41:00.000-08:00

im so tired. dis shall b de last one im writin for tonite. tink im gonna turn in soon. tmr im gonna b hers. n on tuesday im gonna b hers. mus rmbr. haha. i miss *it alot. n is chao alot kae. have been tinkin abt *it de whole dae. tot i cud c *it todae but guess wad. no. *luffs* nvr mind. shall ren. i love *it too. haha. lots n lots. ya. dats abt it. nitie nites everyone. sweet dreams. good luck to those takin Os tmr. all de best. love ya guys. n love *it! haha. im out-

2004-10-31T20:48:00.000-08:00

stupid. dunno wads rong wif my blog. carn update it yesterdae. nvr mind. forget it. haha. went to ps in de mornin cus my didi had piano. den aft dat went to keppel for trainin. n i kinda hate it cus i wil b goin to de klas beta dan my current one. so stupid. im scare lahs kae. scare i carn reach de standard up dere. got promoted together wif esther, suann n wenqi. oh! n jia lynn came todae! haha. she sat dere n watch us train.

den had lunch n went to de gym to meet claudia n did sum liftin. haha. so fun. den went back to play tennis den went to bathe. was alone aft nic went off for dinner. went to de end to do my tings. haha. den ard 6 daddie mommie came to pick me up. so sad kae. carn c smth todae. missed *it so much. haha. dead. den went to raffles place for dinner n went to citylink to get my notebook. yay! i love *it kae. so much. haha. n i jus got home too. yeps. dats abt it. im tired! haha. oh! n happie halloween to everyone! hee!

2004-10-31T10:00:00.000-08:00

*yawns* im tired. woke up at 8 plus. thou had almost 10 hrs of sleep im stil tired! my muscles r achin. tink i overstrain it. my mommie saes i deserve it. cus had trainin frm 12.30 - 2.00 den went for lunch till 2.30 den went to de gym to lift n all till 4 went to play tennis till 5. sheesh. pain. gtg now. mommie is callin. nid to do hse work again. sigh! haha. out-

2004-10-30T13:36:00.000-07:00

now in warren. bored mans. wanna go shoppin. maeb ltr ask my daddie brin me go citylink to get my dairies for nex year. tmr wil b havin trainin! yay! i love trainin. haha. esp outside. enjoy trainin. last week was okae lahs. not realli torturin. haha. 4th of nov is cumin. n i wil b goin back to choose my combination. but de dae dat im scared is on de 12th. have to go back to collect my results. n i wil noe which klas i wil b goin. i wanna go 3c! at most jus put me in a pure sci klas. if not i wil b dead. im so bored! wonder wad everyone is doin now.

2004-10-29T21:43:00.000-07:00

i din go sch todae. haha. stayed home to help mommie wif de hse work. cousin n his fren came over to my hse. went to cafe wadeva to take our lunch aft fetchin my didi frm sch. went to daddie's office in de late aftnoon.

den went to clementi to meet my uncle cus my cousin n his fren have waterpolo at de sports complex. deir sch were playin against sum ladies team. god mans. de gurs were so body-build lahs. shoulders were so broad. stop swimmin when i was 9 cus my parents din wan my shoulders to bcum too broad. waterpolo is damn fun n nice n cool! haha. de coach dere was damn fierce n he is damn loud. keep callin out for de same pp in de pool cus dey weren playin well. tink i shall pick up waterpolo durin de holidaes but dunno whether my daddie mommie wil allow. i wanna learn waterpolo! haha. jus gonna pick it up for fun. not realli gonna learn it well. tennis still rawks my world! =)

2004-10-28T18:15:00.000-07:00

sch was okae todae. kinda fun. but my hand hurts all thanks to de stupid stapling of cca booklets. if i find any booklets in de dustbin i wil realli go aft de person wif de big stapler n knock her on de head. had to sit in de conference room wif de rest to do it. one whole clique dere. n wad we got in return was a piece of choco biscuit. haha. but it was nice.

i had piano aft dat. n was readin along de wae. wonder y daddie is not home yet. supposed to b home by now. oh wells. haha. have to go back to sch nex thurs n fri. gonna have trainin on wed at keppel. fridae n saturdae wil b my sch's open hse. but im onli goin on fridae to help out. goin back on thursdae to choose my combination for nex year. god. so scarie lahs. hope i get into pure klas. *pray* haha. n on de 12th wil b de confirmin of de klas i wil b goin to. scarie! haha. help mans. if i dun get into a pure klas tink i can go die liaos. haha. n hope i wun b grounded if not i wun b able to go out wif my frens to watch ladder 49 n princess diaries 2. realli prayin. haha. =)

2004-10-27T17:32:00.000-07:00

sigh. goin for tuition soon. dun feel like goin mans. missin sumone in me now. have been tinkin all abt it de whole dae. or can sae everydae. haha. i love gwen lots. i love val lots too. i love hit. i love kel. i love fe. i love nic. n i love pris. haha. love dem all.

2004-10-27T16:42:00.000-07:00

todae was kinda a slack dae n a borin dae! had sum stupid fire drill n kept us on de field for so long under de sun. so idiotic. den had a small performance at de end of de dae n sch was over. our dance is cancelled okae! idiots. my group put in so much effort in it n now wad. its cancelled. sheesh.

2004-10-18T18:38:00.000-07:00

yes! todae is de 18th n tmr wil b de 19th! yay! dat means its my last paper n aft dat i can b FREEE! awae frm my books. yes yes yes! tmr wil b my maths paper 2. did my revision alreadi. hope tmr i wil b able to do de paper well. =)