i lost my match okae. but wasn as bad. i played against a combine sch gur. she is realli frenly kae. todae was okae lahs. onli de part when coach said to me: u carn run long distant so u have to run when de rest runs on de track ltr. if they run 6 u have to run 8. bias freak. wad de hell. her shots r so damn blardi fast, hard, deep n its all angle shots. how u expect me to run. its impossible lahs okae. bias. its like in a blink and de ball is returned lahs. cherie met another gur jus like her. but den he din sae aniting to her okae. onli noe how to go against me. okae i noe u take me as a subsitute when tracce din go for tournament okae. i realli feel like tellin u in ur face dat u suck!!

okae. now its kinda freakin me out. my cousin's fren hu is like a year younger jus said smth to me. i onli treated him as a brother? den like. omg!! okae. im sure gonna avoid him like hell lots. stop it mans. shud have taken my cousin's advise. tot he was kiddin abt it. but wad. today is the day he said to me.

u*: okae. seriousli we are driftin okae. i onli get to c u on sundays. onli sundays n its not enuf. we dun tok on the fone as usual or even sms each other. i noe it isn ur fault. n i noe u dun wan dis to happen. i never tot dis day wil even cum okae. but guess today is the day. m i realli darn in bad luck or wad. okae. i realli dunno wad to sae. but guess i jus have to tolerate wif all the pain n all. twinkle twinkle little star. y do all my dreams seem so far. up above the world so high. carn anione tell me y. can you help me out n tell me wad is love abt? cus i never know it for myself till u came abt. im so so afraid dis day wil cum n i wil b tinkin: i used to believe in love. i used to believe in fairy tales. since my heart is crushed. i dun believe much. i nid help. i dunno which way to turn. i nid to figure out for myself. i have jus started to learn dat dere is no such ting as fairytales. i seriousli dun wan to have dis day. dere r stil many chapters to go. i dun wan to close up de book yet. im wondering is a good storie suppose to end unhappily ever aft? jus as wonderful as it begins and carry on for a few chapters until i carn get pass page one n i jus have to shove it back on the shelf. can u help me? i realli dun wan to end unhappily. dere wil be ups n downs. smiles n frowns. as im sittin here tinkin to myself. dere is noone for me except you. n i mean dat. now it jus seems dat is gonna b so so soon.

writtenwithlove at 8:36 PM