okae. im totalli red. as in my face. liked i went for a suntan.
i drank vodka u c. its jus nice. dad promised to buy summore
tmr. cus he wil b goin cold storage. it jus taste like ice cream
soda. nice nice nice. n im feelin sleepy alreadi. but i have to
finish my work. cus i haven finish yet. smart me to leave it
till now. but i finished most of it. left chinese book review.
chem section b gonna do now so as my corrections. school
is reopening soon. carn wait. jus wanna go back. but once
i go back to school. my life is gonna change again. i carn sleep
late animore. n i have to wake up early. sigh. i dun wan.
writtenwithlove at 10:19 PM
to gwen:
i specialli came to blog for u. read ur entries. im so sorrie to make u feel dis wae.
never knew i hurt u so much. do u realise y sumtimes i wud message u for no reason?
cus i still wanna save our frenship? but aft replyin u one or two messages dere wun be
ani reply animore. i tot maeb u din receive it or smth hopin u wil message me de nex day.
i seriousli miss those times where we wud crap on de fone n laugh at those stupid tings.
now i cud onli c u n me was on de day on 11th April when we went to town, have sushi tei,
took neoprints n everyting. that day was jus. mmm. nice? maeb u tink dat i gettin u back was
for a motive. but i seriousli wanna save our frenship. when i heard u were goin awae on de 10th
n carn spend my birthday wif me i was kinda feelin sad? n when it cums ur birthday i hope to
celebrate it wif u like last year? u told me 'sistars foreva' wil stil stay. can i ask u again is it true?
maeb we can find a wae out to get closer? i understand we r frm a different klas but maeb we stil
have tings to tok abt? not like when we c each other is jus hi n bye. i jus wan de old us back.
do u noe recess its de onli time when i find it de most precious n memorable for each day? cus i
wud b able to c u n de rest. n most probably i wil b able to tok to u like we last were. i noe we aren
close compared to bfor. but i realli wish we can find a wae out to get tings back close again?
im realli sorrie. i din mean to hurt u like dat n make u feel dis wae. hope u can jus give dis a chance
to get back to wad it used to b. i realli wanna save dis. maeb fone calls frm u r hard to cum. but a message
frm u everytime is beta dan nth. bfor i finish dis. i wud jus like to tell u 'sistars foreva' wil foreva b in my
heart. (: n bon voyage.
writtenwithlove at 4:31 PM
haven been bloggin. hit has left for hawaii.
n kellie wil b leavin tmr. jillian wil b leavin on friday.
n gwen de nex. no idea when is nic n fe leavin.
sigh. i wil b here all by myself. guess my birthday
this year. mmm. not gonna tok abt it. its quite saddenin
to noe dat gwen is leavin on de 10th. but i carn do aniting
either rite? mmm. im feelin rather down now. but im not
gonna cry on the outside animore. wonder wad is everyone
doin. wonder wad is gwen doin. i tink kel is asleep. she din reply
for so long. wonder if she is okae. think im gonna start watchin
lovers in paris. since im bored. n no one is dere. dat dumbo aft
hangin up have not messaged me. dunno wads goin on. maeb bz
wif sumting. so i shall not disturbed.
Seems like just yesterday. You were a part of me.
I used to stand so tall. I used to be so strong.
Your arms around me tight. Everything, it felt so right.
Unbreakable, like nothin could go wrong.
Now I cant breathe. No, I cant sleep. Im barely hanging on.
Here I am, once again. Im torn into pieces. Cant deny it.
cant pretend. Just thought you were the one.
Broken up, deep inside. But you won't get to see the tears I cry.
Behind these hazel eyes. I told you everything. Opened up and let you in.
You made me feel alright. For once in my life. Now all that's left of me.
Is what I pretend to be. So together, but so broken up inside.
Cause I cant breathe. No, I cant sleep. Im barely hangin on.
Here I am, once again. Im torn into pieces. Cant deny it, cant pretend.
Just thought you were the one. Broken up, deep inside.
But you won't get to see the tears I cry. Behind these hazel eyes.
Swallow me then spit me out. For hating you, I blame myself.
Seeing you it kills me now. No, I don't cry on the outside anymore...
Here I am, once again. Im torn into pieces. Cant deny it.
cant pretend. Just thought you were the one.
Broken up, deep inside. But you wont get to see the tears I cry.
Behind these hazel eyes. Here I am, once again.
I'm torn into pieces. Cant deny it. cant pretend.
Just thought you were the one. Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry.
Behind these hazel eyes.
writtenwithlove at 9:19 PM
haven been bloggin. guess tings r okae.
but sumone impt is gone. she is not gonna
b dere for me animore. she dun look up for me
animore. we jus seem to b hi bye frens. maeb
its my fault for lettin it drift? but it jus hurts.
guess u never noe. i tried to save it but it was too late.
i let u consider to b back wif us. as i told u. i can onli c
u in de mornin for at most 15 to 20 mins. n durin recess.
dats like 1hr in a day? now i dun even get to tok to u?
its like we dun even have ani topics to tok abt. how cud u
jus dump me? u never explained tings to me. guess u r jus
totalli tired abt explainin alreadi. study hard kae. guess
de 'sistars foreva' tingie wud jus end soon or maeb it alreadi
have ended? but gwen. as i said. no matter wad happens.
u wil alwaes b my sistar. sumone hu played an impt role in my
life. i dunno how im gonna accept de fact dat dis day actualli came.
but guess i have to swallow all those tears. at times. i feel like givin
u a call or even sms u. but i noe its not gonna work out. wad im saein
now mae give u goosebumps but i hope u can consider again? our
frenship n everyting. pls. dis i beg u.
n kel. i hope u wun jus walk awae jus like dat alreadi kae.
i wun b able to take it if u r de nex one im gonna lose. since
i tink i have lost gwen alreadi.
writtenwithlove at 8:46 PM
today is so screwed again. i got no idea wads goin on
the whole entire day. im totalli lost now? n im so gonna
blow up veri veri soon. wad is goin on? like im not part
of dis world. where de hell r u? u r seriousli makin me go mad.
u dun wanna tell me wads goin on. u jus
dumped me here all alone n u walked off again? fine.
b it. walk awae. u jus broke ur promise over n over again.
hidin tings awae frm me. witout saein bye. leavin me
bhind. so dats u rite? forget it. my sis doesn even wan
to tok to me either. except gwen. n she now is havin trainin.
hu else can i find? guess im beta off alone. since when tings
happen dis wae? mentally physically. now i get it. guess now
i shud b rite abt keepin my mouth shut abt it? im so
so rite dat dis is gonna happen AGAIN. n i mean wad i sae.
u r jus makin me worried n sick. but u never knew it.
u tink im fakin? i dunno how m i suppose to tell u. repeatin
everyting i sae over n over again. u jus wun listen thou u sae u do.
do i have to suffer all dis pain cus of u. jus shut up. if since u r leavin.
wad can i do? as i said i jus move on. dis is so screwed. totalli. now
my trust in u is like shit. b dis wae. im fine wif it. i shall sae no more.
writtenwithlove at 5:08 PM
today its sports day!! wasn a realli nice day. im stil angrie.
so watch wad u sae. i ran for tennis but umm. we din managed
to immerge top 3. but its okae. we tried our best. (: maeb
hockey 2 beat us by a few secs.
FOR YOU PP:
aft dat everyting jus went crashing down when gwen
told me WE ARE GOIN BUGIS. hello? hu said dat.
n it was confirmed dat we go to town!!
i have no idea wads goin on. no call no sms to tell me dere
was a change. n i dunno hu suggested it. so does it mean
im not one of u guys? gwen dun even noe a ting too.
n u pp jus make ur own decisions without tellin us. n wad.
jus left de place witout tellin us too. i called kel n her fone
was off. i din blame hit or nic for not pickin up de first time.
okae. at least nic n hit did explain to me a lil wads goin on.
but wad de hell is dis? firstly im mad cus i wasn even informed
a single bit dat we were goin bugis. okae. goin bugis is fine.
but i mae not go once i tell mommie dere was a change.
secondly u guys jus left witout us n not even lettin us noe.
thirdly i called u guys n u said u pp have tuition n r headin
home. 2 changes in jus a few mins? n again. not told at all.
gwen n i dun even noe where de hell u guys went. did u
guys even tot of us in de first place? how we felt abt wad
u guys did? u guys never made decisions witout askin gwen
n i. n hu de hell break dis rule?
KEL : i dunno wad u r up to.
u dun wanna tok to me. ask u wads rong u sae nth.
u dun wanna ans my calls. even if i left a call on ur fone
u dun even call back. n u dun even reply my msg.
wad de hell r u up to. i seriousli dunno.
u r jus hidin tings frm me. makin me feel bad abt everyting.
wad did i do to make u avoid me. i din even do aniting at all.
u r avoidin gwen too for no reasons. u call urself our sistars?
i noe u r stress. we do too. not onli u. hit n nic n de rest do too.
stress doesn mean u have to avoid us rite? its like a knife
thru our hearts? u r not onli makin me feel bad. u r makin gwen too!!
snap out of it kel. stop it! wake up frm dis terrible nitemare.
u r jus torturin urself. its fine if u dun wan me to bother u.
i wun. since u dun wan me to. guess wad i did. how much
i said n b dere for u wun help. de tot of it jus makes me cry.
guess u never knew how painful it is. i msg u. i call u.
is jus to make myself noe dat u r okae. but. u jus make my
world cum crashin down. is dat rite? now all i have to sae is.
im sorrie for everyting dat i have done in sum wae to
make u angrie. i have no idea wad it is. but if u wanna me
to screw off. i wil. jus one word n i wil go.
writtenwithlove at 6:27 PM
trainin today is like terribly horrendous!! so shit.
i was caught in de rain. when i cud even put down
my bag n dere coach shawn goes. : hurry up jorain.
went in to run. haven even warm up finish.
n den had to do drills. its tirin lahs. god.
first drill: run frm one end of de court to de other.
if de ball bounces twice -1. u carn pass ur
partner to hit de ball.
second drill: one in front of de other. ball
lands aniwhere in de court. its mainly
in front of de net, near ur partner, or near
de base line.
third drill: its de most fun. have to run
to de nex court to hit it. maeb sprint.
played 54321. den bfor trainin ends.
had to run ard de perimeter of de 2 courts.
like for 10 mins. den have to overtake sumone
dat coach shawn orders plus mus sprint 1 more round.
tirin!! i was totalli like drenched?!!? like i took
a shower without dryin myself. ate, bathed den
went to study. haven finished yet kae. but i dun plan
to do animore cus wil b skippin maths tmr.
today was okae actualli until i saw those
sentences. its like in my head.
can memorise it : in ur love, my salvation lies(x3),
were you missin me when you were lookin blah blah.
sign off as drops of jupiter. den got smth me onli. ya ya.
wadeva. jus screw off kae. irritatin idiotic pest.
stop buggin pp lahs. get a life!! shithead.
today is jus a happie day until u spoilt it
with ur words. words of ur own which
makes pp hate you. i support my
double crook kae.
gwen: darling!! u make me so disappointed
in you!! u din tok to me lahs!! i noe u dun wan
me rite? okae lahs. den maeb. u shall jus sae it. (X
hee. (psss. im kiddin kae. )
kel: tmr is ur bdae!! wish ya an early
happie bdae kae!! (: love ya.
writtenwithlove at 10:20 PM